#like things that would be a relatively understandable amount of stress just gets amplified

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I'm certainly having one hell of a fucking week, I'm so tired...

[koushisatori]

Anniversary

First of all: If you happen to stumble across this, please cut me some slack and be gentle with me. English is not my mother tongue, and on top of that, I got rusty by procrastinating everything (literally) for the last half-year (*μ_μ) I am apologizing in advance if something is weirdly written.

This is also my first ever piece of fanfiction, so I have to get used to that to :(( So if you got ideas or anything, I’ll gladly try to fulfill your wishes to simultaneously improve my writing.

Hmm, is there anything else? I hope not, and if there is, I’ll add it !! 

tendou x f!reader

genre: small bit of angst, fluff

warnings: none

word count: 2.7k

note: /

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usually, your relationship with Tendou is smooth sailing, both of you decided to take the step of moving in together relatively early, exceeding the common couples limit by not only doing this barely a year into your relationship but doing so in a different country far from your family and friends

(both of you learning french together to survive a new life in an absolutely foreign country...however, the first months of grocery shopping were disastrous ) 

you both became a couple in your last year at Shiratorizawa, surprising absolutely....well,...no one, honestly

every person just seeing a moment of your interactions with each other would have guessed that you already were dating

Tendou and you were the embodiment of being disgustingly in love - like people see you and feel  s i n g l e wanting to have what you two obviously found with the other

(SemiSemi, to this day, shudders violently thinking about how he caught you two making out in the storage room a week after Tendou finally confessed to you <3) 

anyway

while Tendou followed his dream of becoming a chocolatier, you began to study - enter: stress

after finishing his required training he got a job at a high-class factory (everything his handmade and super expensive?? You’re just so lucky to be his better half and get to taste his creations for free)

they value his skills and invest in him to become better, but that also means that his time for you shrank even more

you understood that, of course, and it's not like you didn’t spend a lot of your times crouching over books either with being close to receiving your first degree

in general, your fights are stressed-induced, and as quickly forgotten as they came up bc...let’s not beat around the bush, both of you are shit at staying mad at the other, especially if it means cutting short the already sparse time you currently have <3

they’re usually about petty stuff, too

recently though it happens more regularly and they ever so slowly started to border on painful

he stays at work for longer to perfect his already otherworldly skills; and your patience is running thin with all the deadlines and exams putting immense pressure on you

both of you are just so unsatisfied and stressed and...so fucking tired

it’s always forgivable though

you don’t mind planned dinner dates turning into movie nights with him falling asleep on you after what feels like seconds

because he’s there, pressing his face into your side or stomach hard enough for you to wonder if he’s trying to suffocate himself, while his long arms are around your waist holding onto you as if his life depends on it

he doesn’t mind being splayed across your lap watching the latest episodes of his series while you type away on your laptop, even though you were supposed to enjoy a nice weekend lazying in front of the tv with him 

a forgotten date hasn’t killed you yet as well, but the amount of times it was currently happening allowed insecurities to have their way with you

both of you always make up for it one way or another (leaving an apology breakfast or even taking it to bed, buying flowers, sharing the sweet kisses you were supposed to enjoy the night before,...) 

but this time, he didn’t just forget to be on time for any date.

he completely missed your anniversary

you spend the whole afternoon cooking his favorite dish for dinner, making yourself all pretty for him, wearing the jewelry he got you for your birthday, it was some kind of tradition by now

just to be stood up, dinner turning cold and your mood sour

no message, no callback

around 11pm he - finally ! - gets in touch with you 

‘‘(Y/N)!! Bunny, did something happen? Did you miss me so much?’’

you could hear the dopey grin he was wearing while teasing you, one you usually loved, one that was contagious

but it didn’t help the pain and disappointment nesting in your heart, right now

he really didn’t remember

was the date so insignificant to him? were you no longer a priority?

you swallow around the lump in your throat, desperately begging your brain to not amplify your insecurities even more

‘’No...it’s...it’s alright, I just wanted to know when you’re home...’’ your attempt to keep the doubts and pain you experienced that second hidden was pointless, because even on the phone, your boyfriend was able to look right through you

‘‘Bunny what’s wrong?’’ he asks worriedly

normally you’d say that it was alright, that you’d speak later or directly say what was bugging you so terribly

this time...you didn’t feel like talking or maybe even fighting, scared that he might confirm your thoughts and leave you

‘’It’s nothing, Tendou,...’’ you hear him wince, you can’t remember the last time you called him that ’’don’t bother with me if it’s not as important to you.’’ 

‘‘Not as...’’ a moment of silence follows, in which he checked the date and, lastly, Tendou understood ‘’Oh. Oh shit, (Y/N),...Bunny, please, wait for me, please, let me explain...’‘

It’s not the answer you wanted (on the other hand, what answer would that be?)

‘‘I waited...and I’m tired,’‘ you add without thinking, hanging up before he even got the chance to answer

while you don’t want things to end...you can’t help but think ‘what if?’ - that thought alone though is enough for the dams to burst

With a soft groan, you blink your burning eyes open, noticing your spine protesting and pop from the uncomfortable position you fell asleep in. A glance at the alarm clock elicited another tired groan, the 4 on display mocking you. 

The burning and overall sluggish feeling controlling your body immediately reminded you of the things that had taken place. That his scent surrounding you arose solely due to his pillow in which you had pressed your face.

While you obviously weren’t on the best of terms right now, a small part of you was still hopeful and reached out across the bed in search for the warmth your red-haired better half usually provided. Unsurprisingly, your hand met a cold bed half.

An annoyed sigh later, you sat up and rubbed over your eyes angrily. You were hurt, which should be understandable, but remembering his overly happy tone even with evident tiredness underlaying it, you guessed that he didn’t stay behind on purpose and that, maybe, something good had happened. So to say, you as well behaved like an idiot.

Suddenly, you remember the last sentence you said. Realizing what it implied, you felt like banging your head against the wall. You wanted to be understood by him. What you didn’t want was to give Satori the time to allow his anxious tendencies to fester while he was alone, foregoing untrue, negative ideas. The fact that he still wasn’t in bed with you, was proof enough which lead to you cursing out loud.

While your last words towards him told something differently, you surely didn’t want to leave him or him to leave you. Both of you could work things out, you always did, and…well, you always hoped that it would stay that way until you had lived a fulfilling life as a couple, with grey hair and wrinkles taking your last breath together wherever life would lead the two of you.

The simple solution was to communicate like the grown adults you are. 

Determined to talk through it the way you should have done earlier and maybe...just maybe get some cuddles afterward, you swung your legs out from under the blankets. After you quickly put on some warm, worn-out socks, you quietly leave the bedroom and tip-toe through the hallway.

You expected the apartment to be silent, to be dark. What you didn’t expect is the soft light coming from your shared kitchen. Or the clinking noises of bowls and pots colliding lightly, lowly muttered, sleepy curses, and even quieter sniffles interrupting the barrage of words from time to time.

Upon hearing those little sounds - no doubt coming from your anxious boyfriend - your heart clenched painfully in your chest. This is your injudicious doing. Straightening your back, you stepped into the kitchen, slightly squinting against the much harsher ceiling lights assaulting your eyes.

The original plan was to offer a heartfelt apology, and follow it up by an honest declaration of love and the proposal to talk about everything. There were a lot of things that needed to be cleared up between you and Tendou. But after entering the kitchen, you came to an abrupt halt.

Your eyes wandered, lingering on cuts, burns, and blisters that blemished your boyfriends' pretty fingers. Slowly, your gaze continued to move up his arms and shoulders, tensed and screaming out his fear of losing you. For a moment, you hesitated, but you eventually lifted your gaze to meet his wide eyes, as red-rimmed and puffy as yours. He looked like a deer caught in headlights. Normally, you would find it adorable and stretch your hands out to cup his cheeks (not to pull him down, definitely not) and press a kiss to his lips...but right now? You really just felt like crying, seeing your Satori so heartbroken over something you said carelessly in the heat of the moment.

Suddenly wincing, Tendou quickly pulls back his hand to his chest away from the hot stove. Yet, he did not dare to break eye contact with you. Seemingly afraid that what he currently saw is nothing but a sleep-deprivation induced hallucination. That you would just vanish if he so much dared to even think of blinking.

The stupor rooting you to the spot though vanished in favor of closing the gap between the two of you to help him.

‘‘Tori...’‘ you croaked worriedly, eyes flickering down to his hands and back up to his watery, sad eyes. ‘‘I’m so sorry,’’ you whispered. Any louder and your voice might break. ’’...let me take care of you.’‘ 

You turned off the stove before you gently tugged Tendou behind you to the bathroom. Making him sit on the edge of the small tub, you gathered everything you needed to patch him up with rehearsed movements.

For a while, both of you were silent. 

You carefully worked on disinfecting cuts and putting special creams on the different wounds and burns, while not hurting him any further. Concentrating on ignoring the thick tension of untold apologies, and fear. Doubt weighing heavy on the two of you. 

Meanwhile, Tendou couldn't help but admire your features. Your soft hair - faintly smelling like peaches and anis - falling into your face, hiding away your pretty (Y/E/C) eyes. He loved to get lost in them. Or how your tongue poked out between your lips in concentration and the little scrunch of your nose when you thought that you could have done better. 

Even in this hazy state of mind, he knew for certain that he would try to hold onto you for as long as possible. That he would do anything to make you forgive him.

After you finished gently wrapping band-aids (silly ones with colorful patterns just the way you both love) around his fingers, on his palm, and back of his hand, he quickly moved them to hold onto yours.

‘‘Don’t leave me.’‘ Tendou's voice is just above a whisper, and if you wouldn't have been that close to him as you were, you would have missed it. But you could hear him, and your eyes immediately met his, filling with tears all over again.

‘‘Satori, I’m-’‘

‘‘(Y/N), please...please, don’t leave me. I’m so sorry. Of course, I care. Our relationship, you...nothing’s as important to me as you are. It was the only thing keeping me sane that last week. I don't know why I forgot about it. I truly feel horrible.'' he started. ''Please, believe me. I love you so, so much. I...I can’t imagine a life without you. I don’t want to.’’ Even with his voice quivering, it was crystal clear just how serious his words were to him. 

He needed to get it out in the open. There was no way in hell that he would allow any doubts about your relationship to fester in your mind.

‘’I was held back to talk about the upcoming Christmas preparations that I’m supposed to be leading this year, and then I was called into the boss’ office and I couldn’t check my phone,’‘ the desperation to explain still evident, Tendou resorted to rambling about the happenings of the day.

‘‘I’m sorry for hurting you, but Bunny, I beg you...I know that we haven't had enough time those last weeks, that we didn't have any if we’re honest. I understand that you must feel neglected. I will change that, give me a chance to make you forgive me, please.’‘ 

It wasn’t like you wanted to cry again, but the tears rolling down your cheeks seemed to have a mind on their own. ‘’ ‘Tori...’’ you sniffled, your voice breaking away at the last syllable. ‘’Can I hug you?’’  

The relief on his face spoke volumes, and before you even got the chance to make good on your words, he already stands tall in front of you, enveloping you tightly.

Securely wrapped up in Satoris’ arms, you feel like coming home after months away. Or like taking in the first gasp of fresh air after holding your breath underwater for too long. With Tendou holding onto you like this, you found the strength to answer.

''I'm sorry, too...I love you so much, and...I know you always have a reason, and it was childish to hang up on you and leave you worrying alone instead of talking to you. And...if you neglected me those last weeks, then I did the same. We both were too busy for each other...'' 

After a short pause, you ask: ''B-but we can work it out, right?’’ Slowly, you looked up to him. ‘’I want to spend my life with you, Satori. Don’t listen to dumb me 5 hours earlier. 5-hours-ago-me was so stupid, and petty, and does not reflect my true wishes,’’ you added. ’’No one of our old friends wanted to put up with me the last week because I’m so head over heels in love with you and all I do is tell them ‘’You should have seen what Tori did for me’’ and what I plan to do for you...I can feel them roll their eyes from the other side of the world!’’

Suddenly aware of your very honest words, you pushed your face against his chest to hide your burning cheeks. Embarrassment painting them in a pretty hue of pink. 

Tendou hadn't realized that he had actually held his breath listening to your words until he chuckled a bit breathlessly. The remaining tension possessing both of your bodies faded away after that, allowing you to relish in the feeling of having the other in your arms again.

After a while, you bravely gazed up at him again, even with your cheeks still set ablaze. ''Come to bed?'' And with a sweet smile, one that reached his eyes and made your heart stutter, he nodded. 

Things between the two of you weren't ideal quite yet, Tendou kknew that much. But they would be. Tomorrow would be a new day. You would hopefully agree to celebrate your anniversary a day later. He hoped, that you would agree to spend it with him from the first second you woke up to the very last before you fell asleep. You will hopefully enjoy the news that his promotion was topped with holidays that allowed you to spend Christmas and New Year's Eve with your families in Japan.

He also hoped for you to say yes when, surrounded by your friends, he would ask you to marry him under the Cherry Blossoms in spring.

Things weren't quite ideal, but watching your peaceful expression while sleeping on his chest, he knew, all the up and downs were worth powering through. He would embrace every hardship if that meant keeping you by his side forever.

[cannibalisticapple]

So around a week or two ago I sent an anonymous ask to @corndog-patrol suggesting Villain Mic finding a Cat!Shouta. When I saw it on my phone in the car, I had to stop myself from reading until I could get home and look at it in full on my computer. It has been so much better than I could have ever imagined.

Seeing all the doodles and artwork so far has been a HUGE inspiration for me, and I ended up writing this over the past week. Because I am physically incapable of writing anything short, it kinda ballooned to almost 8k words, partially because I ended up adding to it as more art was posted. The majority of it was written before the bowtie pic though, including the opening scene. (Fun fact: I originally called Shouta “Pepper”.)

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, well, anything to Tumblr, so apologies for any weird formatting issues! And thanks again to @corndog-patrol for making such a great Villain Mic AU! Anyways, enjoy!

The Adventures of Puddles

           Given his known fondness for cats, most of Shouta’s friends and colleagues often teased him about how getting hit by a Quirk that turned him into a cat would be a dream come true for him.

           They were wrong.

           The hero-turned-feline felt thoroughly irritated as he loped down the street, the heavy downpour soaking him thoroughly and weighing down his thick black fur with water. He’d been turned into a cat while heading to UA just that evening, and since then he’d been rather unhappy. Nemuri had laughed her head off when she found him halfway to her apartment with his goggles around his neck and his capture weapon dragging along the ground behind him, which really hadn’t helped much.

           Considering he’d been found by Nemuri relatively fast, he should be safe and dry right now, but then Nemuri had taken him to UA. Logically it made sense of course, Shouta would be safe there and he’d have easy access to a support network to find a way to reverse the transformation. Unfortunately, he hadn’t accounted for how the kids would react. One of them had sighted Nemuri carrying him inside, and Nemuri had no hesitation dumping him on the student with a sadistic grin while she went to meet with the other staff.

           After spending an hour being assaulted by his students cooing over him and ruffling him from twenty different directions at once (literally), he’d desperately craved some space and alone time. The sight of Snipe and Cementoss sneaking around with cameras and phones ready, clearly intending to take photos of his ordeal, had been the last push he needed to jump the wall and get away from UA for a bit. He knew the area well enough, he should be safe to walk around a couple hours even as a cat. Key word: should.

           It was just his luck he’d get chased by someone’s dog for what must have been half a mile, ending with him lost in an only vaguely familiar part of town. His attempts to find his way back had only succeeded in making him more lost over the ensuing hours, the vaguely familiar scenery giving way to buildings he absolutely did not recognize. And of course, it also had to start raining shortly after that.

           Right now, he just wanted to get out of the heavy rain. He was wet, cold, tired, and felt sore in ways he didn’t even know possible until being turned into a cat. Turns out having your body undergo a radical physical transformation tended to put some stress on muscles and preexisting injuries. Go figure. At least his dry eye hadn’t seemed to transfer over, but that didn’t make him any less stressed.

           The feeling only amplified when he stepped in a puddle and proceeded to plummet into it with a startled yowl, water splashing everywhere. Of course this sidewalk would have a giant hole in it that flooded with water and turned into a miniature, cat-sized bath. The hole was deep enough his head barely stuck above the water, the chilly temperature making him shudder. He scrabbled at the edges with an annoyed growl, trying to pull himself out.

           “Hey, you okay little buddy?” The voice behind him made him freeze, the fur on his back standing on end. Shit. He knew that voice. His head whipped around to see a man crouching behind him, and while he wasn’t wearing his costume, Shouta couldn’t think of anyone else with a loud voice who also sported a stupid mustache like that. This had to be Present Mic.

           Great, just great, he thought sarcastically. For some odd reason the idiot wasn’t wearing a raincoat in this weather, his long blond hair partially pulled into a bun with the loose strands plastered to his face and shoulders by the rain. How the guy could even see with all those water droplets on his glasses was beyond Shouta. “Oh man, I always said someone was gonna fall into this stupid thing. Come on, let’s get you out.”

           Shouta silently glowered at the villain as he reached out to him but made no effort to push him away. Trying to get a good grip on the pavement was tricky with the rain making everything so slippery. Maybe if he could figure out how to get his claws to pop out, but he’d yet to figure out a lot of his new form’s functions. Frankly, the fact he could walk at all was a miracle considering he’d never used a four-legged body before.

           So the sulking cat allowed the blond villain to carefully slip his hands around Shouta’s... armpits? Well, his hands went between around the edges of his front legs and shoulders, so, close enough—and pull him out of the hole. Rather than put him down like he expected though, Mic shifted his hold to carry the grumpy feline, turning to walk to a nearby apartment building. “Come on, let’s get you inside so we can dry you off. My place is just over there!”

           ...And now Mic was taking him to his apartment. Crap. Shouta naturally began to struggle, wanting to get the hell back to UA instead, but Mic had a surprisingly strong grip. In the end he gave up and just sulked in the villain’s arms with a grumpy scowl as the blond draped a towel over him, resigned to his fate. At least he was out of the rain.

           “Oh man, you’re lucky I found you!” Mic commented, looking down at him with a concerned frown. “A lil’ fella like yourself could drown in all that rain!” He switched on the light switch by the door, illuminating one of the most rundown and shabby apartments Shouta had ever seen. And considering his meager salary as an underground hero, he’d seen a lot of crummy places while apartment hunting. “You’ll be safe here, just make yourself at home you little cutie!”

           Shouta just silently scowled at his current predicament. He just wanted to get warm and dry and take a nice, long nap until this stupid Quirk wore off. (It better wear off.)

           The Quirk did not wear off.

             Morning found Shouta still very much a feline, much to his ire. He woke up well before Mic, the blond snoozing away in his bedroom (Shouta had chosen to sleep on the couch, which had literal patches sewn on it, he’d never seen that outside cartoons), and Shouta felt no small amount of irritation at the fact he still had this stupid feline body. At least he was warm and dry now. That didn’t make him any happier about the situation though.

           A glance at the bathroom mirror had revealed himself to be particularly mangy and stocky rather than sleek and agile-looking like most cats. His long hair had turned into thick, shaggy fur, the black coloration adding an air of dirtiness as opposed to the soft and fluffy feeling exuded by Mic’s actual cat. Sprinkles, if the name written on the food bowl was accurate.

             Speaking of the food bowl, Mic was now beaming down at Shouta as he sat next to the now-full bowl. “Come on, it’s safe to eat!” Mic goaded—nay, practically pleaded with him, his mouth pulled into a pout as he looked down at Shouta. “You have to be hungry, little guy!”

             Shouta just glowered at him, ignoring the bowl. Nope. Not gonna eat that. He might be a cat for now (seriously this stupid thing better wear off on its own), but he was NOT going to eat cat food.

             Mic sighed, seeming to accept the fact as he turned to begin rifling through the cabinet. Good, looks like he got the picture and was looking for something else to feed him. “It’s the bowl, right?” he muttered. Wait, what? Mic turned around holding a cracked plastic soup bowl, dumping another scoop of kitty kibble into it before setting it next to Shouta. “There! This bowl doesn’t smell like Sprinkles, so it should be good, right?”

             He beamed down at Shouta, clearly proud of his understanding of cats. Shouta just stared at him blandly, making no move to touch it, and Mic soon deflated. “Eh, you’ll get hungry try it eventually,” he muttered, turning away with a sigh and trudging off to his bedroom. Shouta watched him leave with a blank face, still pointedly ignoring the bowl of cat food.

             As he sat there Sprinkles sauntered over and plopped down on the floor next to him, blinking her large eyes at him as she studied him curiously. Normally, Shouta would be happy to be in the presence of a cat, especially one who seemed as sweet and friendly as Sprinkles. Seeing as he himself was currently a cat, however, he found his joy slightly diminished. He couldn’t exactly pet her with paws, which sucked since her fluffy white fur looked particularly soft and silky.

             For now, he settled for patting her leg with his paw to try to satiate the urge. Sadly, it did not have the same effect as running his fingers through her fur. He sulked up until he heard a gasp, and turned to see Mic staring at him with sparkly eyes from the door to his bedroom. He bounced over with a giant grin and bent down next to them. “So adorable!” he gushed, rubbing Shouta’s head affectionately.

             At this point, Shouta’s broody mood outweighed the urge to claw off his hand.

             “So, I already have Sprinkles,” Mic mused aloud, “So what do you think of the name... Pickles?”

             Scratch that. Shouta proceeded to do so literally, highly satisfied by the startled and pained yelp from the blond.

             “Ow! Ow! Okay, not Pickles! Ouch, that really hurts!”

              Day two of being a cat. Shouta was now covered in clothes while Mic loudly rooted through his dresser.

             “Where is that shirt?” Mic grumbled to himself, tossing a pair of jeans over his shoulder. Why he apparently stored pants and shirts in the same drawers, Shouta had no idea. Why did a person need this many clothes? Granted, he barely bothered with more than the minimal amount needed himself. But still.

             Also, what was that guy even aiming at? Shouta was sitting in the doorway, not even fully in the room!

             Mic made a sound of triumph as he held up a shirt in an eye-searing chartreuse, on the more yellow end of the spectrum. A fact Shouta knew only because he’d spent an hour arguing with one of his students over demanding to use the color in their costume two years ago. Why. Why did anyone have clothing in that shade.

             Mic turned around with a grin, but his smile quickly faded to a look of confusion. “Puddles? Puddles, where are you?” Shouta’s eye twitched, still displeased with the name (seriously, what was with this guy’s preoccupation with English words?), but it beat literally every other suggestion the villain had. Even if he didn’t like the whole reminder of being pulled out of a puddle.

             He gave a displeased mrow and Mic blinked and bent down next to the discarded pile of clothes, lifting up a pants leg to see Shouta’s eyes glowering up at him. “Oh, there you are, you silly baby!” Shouta glared at him, willing all his disdain to show through his eyes. Mic was unfazed. “Aw, geez, now I need to wash the hair off this stuff!” Mic playfully scolded as he started picking up the clothes.

             You literally threw it on me, Shouta thought silently. You have no one to blame but yourself for this. He waited patiently for Mic to lift the clothes off him, depositing them on his bed to be washed later. Shouta took silent pleasure in the glimpse of black hairs stuck to them.

             Mic pulled on the eye-searing shirt while Shouta continued to sit and brood, chattering all the while. “Man, I am so stoked to see this band tonight! I feel kinda bad leaving you alone here all day when you’re still getting used to the place, but you’ll have Sprinkles to keep you company so you shouldn’t be too lonely!” He grabbed what Shouta presumed to be his work uniform and folded the shirt over his arm, giving Shouta a final pet as he strode past him. Shouta remained in place, pointedly ignoring him as he continued to sulk and brood.

             Approximately ten seconds later Mic returned, looking notably dejected. “Your bowl is still full,” he said glumly. “Are you seriously on some sort of hunger strike?” Shouta made a rumbling noise halfway between a meow and a grumble, and Mic groaned, dragging his hand down his face. “C’mon, Puddles, I’m on a limited budget here! Do I need to steal expensive food for you?”

             Shouta responded with a pointed glare. He would NOT condone Mic stealing cat food for him. As a hero, he couldn’t allow even the most trivial of crimes, even if they had good intentions behind them. Plus, he had a feeling the blond would try feeding him a wet canned food next, and the thought of the slimy-looking can-shaped meat chunk just made him want to shudder.

             (He pointedly ignored the fact he stole one of the pieces of chicken from Mic’s dinner last night when the blond wasn’t looking. He was a cat right now, cats did not need to obey any laws, and snagging food from someone’s plate wasn’t exactly illegal anyway.)

             “I still have that concert tonight so it’ll have to wait until tomorrow,” Mic sighed, and then nodded to himself with a look of renewed resolve. “I can’t let you starve though! We’ll have to improvise for now!” He marched off to the kitchen, and Shouta followed silently, letting himself feel a glimmer of hope. That hope was soon rewarded when he found Mic rooting through the fridge, pulling out a can of sardines.

             Not my first choice but I’ll take it. Shouta trotted over as Mic put it on a paper plate, hopping onto the counter to begin chowing down before he could even pick up the plate. Relief visibly flooded Mic’s face as he ate, his shoulders slumping and a breath of air escaping him. “Oh thank goodness, I was getting worried there! Kinda picky for a stray though, aren’tcha?” Shouta just rumbled in the back of his throat, too busy eating to respond otherwise.

             “Welp, I gotta run if I want to get to work on time,” Mic said, glancing at the clock. “See you later, cool cats! Sprinkles, make sure Puddles doesn’t get into trouble while I’m gone!” The white cat meowed in response, and with a jaunty wave Mic departed, the click of the door shutting and locking ringing particularly heavily in the ensuing silence. Shouta’s head snapped up, eyes locking on the door.

             Okay, he’s finally gone. Time to see if I can find an escape route. Shouta had no intention of staying here absolutely longer than necessary; the sooner he found someone he knew, the better. Finishing off the sardines, he leaped off the counter and made his way to the door, determined to get out.

             Ten minutes of trying to open it later, he found his resolve faltering though. Cat paws just weren’t good for turning round doorknobs, even with the advantage of knowing how they worked. And that didn’t even account for trying to just reach it. There were no convenient surfaces near the handle to stand on, so he spent most of those ten minutes just hopping up and down trying to reach it.

             As he found himself clinging to the knob with all four limbs trying desperately not to slide off, he finally conceded this probably wouldn’t work.

             Letting himself fall to the ground, he proceeded to sullenly slink to the rest of the apartment to search for an alternate route. He’d neglected to explore the apartment the previous day beyond the bathroom and the main living space, as he’d rather not look around a villain’s place too much. Beyond the whole “don’t intend to stay more than a day” thing, he didn’t really feel keen on the “invasion of privacy” thing. The man might be technically a villain, but honestly, Shouta viewed him as more of a nuisance than dangerous.

             After checking the window in the living room and confirming it would be even more of a hassle to open than the front door, he reluctantly turned his attention to the bedroom. The door was half-closed, and he felt apprehensive as he crept towards it because, again, invasion of privacy. He’d only sat outside the door that morning because Mic was being noisy and he was curious. He hadn’t been able to see a window then, but there could be one on the wall outside his view, and if he got lucky it would be open.  So he nudged open the door, looking around, and—

             ............

             That was a lot of Eraserhead merchandise.

             Shouta just stared at the collection of posters and other objects in the corner where two dressers met, as if staring would make it disappear or somehow become... something else. Anything else. But nope, it all stayed in place, from the folded shirt to the homemade banner with ‘ERASERHEAD’ written in large English letters.

             I don’t even HAVE merchandise. What the actual hell. Those looked like replicas of his capture weapon and goggles, though the color was slightly off, and... Was that a plushie of him? Hopping onto one of the dressers and prodding at the small doll curiously, he confirmed it was, indeed, a hand-made plushie of him.

              Mic returned several hours later to Sprinkles pawing at Shouta as he hid under the couch. Mic, naturally, just assumed Shouta was spooked and proceeded to spend about half an hour trying to coax him out. Shouta pointedly ignored his cooing and just remained curled up in the safe embrace of the darkness, wishing desperately he could unsee what he had seen.

              Day three of being a cat. Shouta had finally emerged from his spot under the couch to dine on more sardines, having resumed his usual cool demeanor after the initial shock and embarrassment at seeing the shrine. What shrine? Shouta saw absolutely no hand-made plushies or other merchandise of himself, Mic’s room was absolutely normal. Well, as normal as a bedroom belonging to Present Mic could be.

             More important than nonexistent merchandise, he was starting to wonder if the Quirk had a time limit. Was he doomed to be forever a cat? No, no, he’d give it a week before he started to panic. A lot of long-lasting Quirks had a week-long time limit, there was no reason to assume it didn’t have a limit. No need to freak out just yet—

             What was that spot?

             Shouta froze, transfixed by a yellowish dot moving on the floor next to him. Gaze following it intently, he tentatively slapped his paw over it, only for it to appear on top of it. He blinked in mild surprise, and when he withdrew his paw the spot didn’t move with it instead, remaining in the exact place on the floor.

             Had he been human he would have frowned at it, so for now he settled for squinting. What is this thing? After a few seconds the weird spot moved away and bounced in a small circle along the tile floor. Eyes narrowing, he slowly crept towards it and pounced again, only for it to once more appear atop his paw.

             Another confused blink, and he quickly retreated, circling it warily. He slowly reached out to tap it, watching the spot overlap with his dark fur before quickly withdrawing his paw. Nearby he heard Mic give a soft giggle, which he chose to ignore as he inspected  the spot more thoroughly. Obviously it wasn’t a bug, or even anything physical.

             Is it a light? he thought. It was the most reasonable explanation. But what kind of yellow light is that small and able to move like that? The only light he could think of were—wait.

             Shouta abruptly froze as the spot zoomed away, just staring into space as gears clicked into place in his mind.

             Did I seriously fall for a laser pointer? he thought in disbelief. Another soft giggle from Mic drew his attention to the blond, and he confirmed his suspicion instantly upon seeing him pointing a pen-like device towards the wall. His left hand pressed against his mouth as he watched the two cats from a distance, an amused smile peeking through his fingers.

             I fell for a laser pointer, Shouta mentally reiterated in mild shock.

             In his defense, his new eyes had a more limited range of color so he couldn’t exactly tell the light was red. Had he been able to see its color, he would’ve made the connection right away. Somehow, his newfound red-green colorblindness had slipped his mind with everything else going on. Come to think of it, that hideous shirt Mic wore yesterday might not actually be that hideous. Huh.

           As Shouta stared at him Mic’s smile faded, his hand lowering from his mouth as he frowned. He looked kind of... disappointed? Shouta blinked, briefly confused by the change in expression, until he saw the laser zoom past his paws again. Oh. Mic was still trying to play with him. Yeah, Shouta got pretty dejected too when his own cat lost interest.

             As he watched Mic’s shoulders slump he felt a twinge of guilt, and decided to take pity on the man. He abruptly spun and pounced onto the light, the laser bouncing wildly as Mic startled. As the laser swerved away and Shouta chased after it, he snuck a glance at Mic to find him grinning brilliantly, his eyes sparkling. That looked much better than the sad look he’d been sporting.

             Shouta was only doing this because he was bored. Cats had very limited options for mental stimulation, it was only logical to take advantage of a distraction when he had the chance. The fact it made Mic happy had nothing to do with it. Nothing at all.

              Day four of being a cat.

             Shouta was learning more about Mic than he ever wanted to, and not just because he was forced to inhabit the same space as the man. No, Mic had apparently decided that cats made perfect receptacles for venting.

             Shouta felt ready for a villain to burst through the wall and end his misery now as Mic laid on his bed, venting to him in a manner eerily reminiscent a teenage girl. The comparison was more apt than Shouta expected actually, given the man’s obsession with appearances and melodramatic tendencies in his villain persona. He kind of reminded him of an unholy fusion of Ashido and Jirou.

             So far he’d heard everything. Rants about the awful music selection played at the convenience store on the way to his job. The atrocious battery life of his cell phone and the hassle of carrying a charger everywhere. The apartment manager who always drew out and loudly over-enunciated her words after she first noticed his hearing aids, making it even harder to understand her (actually a valid grievance, Shouta admitted).

             And Shouta just sat there with a grumpy look, trying to convey his utter lack of interest through his sour glare. Part of him contemplated just leaving, but he had actually been quite comfortable sitting on this pillow before Mic came in and flopped onto the bed with an exasperated, “You won’t believe the day I’ve had!” Aside from the noise, this pillow was still quite comfortable, much moreso than the couch, which was worn enough he could feel the springs creak under his weight. So he just tried to ignore the venting.

             It was not as easy as he hoped.

             “—And then there’s my shitty job—god I hate that place!” the blond muttered, poking Shouta’s ear. His ear twitched away from the touch, just squinting at him with disdain. You seem to hate a lot of places, he thought sarcastically. “They treat me like shit!” Most “villains” would try destroy a place if they really hated it that much.

             “It’s all just so horrible!” the blond finished with a dramatic groan, while Shouta watched on with absolutely no sympathy. Screw this, the couch is lumpy but at least it’s quiet there. He was about to get up and leap away when the blond perked up, a bright smile lighting up his face. “But y’know what makes everything better?”

             No, what? Shouta thought sarcastically, knowing he’d find out either way.

             “Eraserhead!” Wait what? Shouta tensed at the mention of his name, staring wide-eyed and starting to feel rising panic as Mic began gushing about him. “Seeing him always makes me so much happier!” Okay, he really should have seen this coming, since the villain was pretty overt about his romantic intentions towards Shouta in... literally every encounter they had. “He’s my boyfriend y’know? Sooo cute!” Wait, wait, what—no, back up!! We’re not dating— “He kicks my ass a lot but only ’cuz that’s his job!”

             Don’t say it like! That makes it sound like an abusive relationship!! A distressed hiss nearly escaped Shouta, but it was silenced by the all-consuming panic and embarrassment that had gripped him. Mic had a dreamy-looking smile on his face, his eyes almost glittering as he loudly proclaimed, “I love him a lot!”

             Oh my god. He really IS a teenage girl. Shouta felt like he was watching a disaster movie play out in real time, and in a way he was. The disaster that was Mic’s delusional take of their relationship. Did this idiot even understand how healthy relationships worked!? Why do you even love me so much!?

             Maybe his feline features were more expressive than he thought, or maybe Mic was just in a mood to gush over him, because the blond gave a dreamy sigh and proceeded to elaborate.

             “Man, you should see him in action. He’s so graceful and agile, like a cat.” More literally than you know right now, Shouta thought sullenly. “And he totally doesn’t back down even if the other guy’s, like, ten times his size!” That would be a sixty-foot-tall person, Mic. That would be unrealistic and just makes me sound reckless. “And he manages to take them down with nothing but his skills and his awesome scarf!” I wish I could take down a sixty-foot-tall giant with just that.

             “And plus, he totally punched a reporter in the face this one time!” Mic continued, and that one admittedly caught Shouta’s attention. Usually people highlighted that incident as a bad one, not a good quality. “It’s just, there’s so many heroes out there who only seem to care about the press, y’know?

             “Don’t get me wrong, I love big and flashy stunts as much as the next guy—I mean, as long as I’m not, you know, actually facing All Might myself, haha, oh thank god he’s retired now and that won’t ever happen—but some of them just feel... hollow.” Mic waved his hand with a vague frown. muttering. “Like, they do it more for the cameras than a feeling of doing good, I guess?

             “But Eraserhead,” he breathed with a small smile, rolling onto his side to gaze at the totally nonexistent shrine as he rambled, “He doesn’t care about that stuff. He’s willing to put his life on the line to save everyone! Hell, that poster of him over there” which does not exist “doesn’t show it, but he has this big scar under his eye. Like this, see?”

             He twisted his torso to face Shouta again and traced a crescent-shaped line under his right eye, mirroring the one currently visible on Shouta’s face at that very moment, seriously how dense could a guy be!? “And you know how he got it?” Mic asked, and yes, he did. It was hard to forget having his face slammed into the pavement and ground against it by a Noumu while his students were watching nearby—

             “He got it protecting his students, barely even a full week after meeting them.”

             The sheer reverence in Mic’s voice silenced any snarky internal commentary, Shouta just blinking slowly. Any lingering traces of the dopey smile had faded by this point, replaced by a more serious look he rarely saw on the blond. “Eraserhead almost died then. I heard he was lucky to even still be able to see. I sent him a card of course, and took over his patrol route for him until he got better,” wait, was THAT why there wasn’t a massive spike in crime while he was gone, “but man, it was such a close call...”

             He sighed, letting his head flop back onto the mattress as he stared into space. “It’s just... He went to work expecting a normal day, and instead he ended up facing a giant ambush of, like, two dozen guys or more. And he just went in anyway, knowing he’d probably die. And that—that takes a lot of guts. Guts, and heart.”

             Shouta remained silent, just... staring at him. Slowly he slumped atop the pillow and rolled onto his side, staring into space. He had a lot to think about now.

              Night four of being a cat. Shouta was currently in Mic’s bed. Repeat: Shouta was currently in Mic’s bed.

             Don’t move, he silently commanded himself, staring wide-eyed into the darkness as he remained perfectly still. At some point after listening to Mic confess his undying love he’d fallen asleep, and apparently Mic had taken it as invitation to use him as a teddy bear. The sleeping blond had one arm tossed over Shouta essentially trapping him in place, the hero-turned-feline pressed close to his front. By “close”, he meant he could feel Mic’s breaths tickle the fur on his ears, feel his steady heartbeat against his back.

             Had he been human Shouta would probably be blushing right now. Actually, he might still be doing so underneath the thick fur judging by how warm his face felt. This was the most intimately close he’d gotten to another person in... well, ever. Aizawa Shouta was not a tactile person by any means. ...But even with his limited experience he’d never been this physically close to someone.

             They were sharing a pillow, for crying out loud!

             Part of him wanted to worm his way out and abscond to the couch, pretending this never happened, but... at the same time, he didn’t really want to move. Mic’s body felt so warm. The arm draped over Shouta didn’t feel heavy, but instead oddly comforting. The rhythm of Mic’s heartbeat and the steady rising and falling of his chest gently pushed against his back, providing a silent lullaby that put him strangely at ease.

             This was so illogical. Mic was a villain—well, more of a public nuisance, but still—Shouta shouldn’t feel so safe around him. But something about being pressed so close to the blond, half-covered by the blankets and with his head laying against the surprisingly soft pillow, just filled him with an odd sense of contentment.

             He could feel Mic shift in his sleep, unconsciously pulling Shouta just a little bit closer. “Soft,” he mumbled, the word slurred and quiet, barely recognizable, yet still full of a deep fondness that tugged at Shouta’s heart. He exhaled slowly before closing his eyes, willing the tension to fade from his body as he curled a little closer to Mic.

             Just one night won’t be too bad. I just need to make sure he never finds out I’m the cat.

              Day five of being a cat. Shouta took back anything nice he ever said about Mic.

             “How do you like your new bowtie Puddles?” Mic asked enthusiastically, hugging a very unenthusiastic Shouta with a giant grin.

             “Mow,” he replied dejectedly. This is the worst thing I’ve had to endure in my entire life.

             “I agree!” Mic proclaimed cheerfully.

             “Mow.” No, you don’t, or you wouldn’t be doing this to me.

             Now that he was aware of his current colorblindness, Shouta had no idea what the bow tie actually looked like, but he didn’t think any color scheme could make it look less tacky. It had polka dots. Nemuri might claim Shouta had a horrific fashion sense (not that he cared enough to agree or disagree), but even he acknowledged that a polka dot bowtie was the epitome of stupid looking.

             Sprinkles mewed loudly as she pawed at Mic’s leg, blinking up at them with those large green eyes of hers. Similar to Shouta, she also wore a bowtie, this one a sparkly sequined thing that might be either green or pink. Unlike him, Mic positioned it so the bow was on the back of her neck, which Shouta found to be a perfectly practical and overall lovely choice for a female cat. Clearly she was used to being dressed up, as she made no fuss over it.

             “What’s that, Sprinkles?” Mic asked, bending down and finally releasing Shouta from his hold. Shouta promptly began tugging at the bowtie with his paw, silently cursing his lack of opposable thumbs to aid in removing it. His tiny toes couldn’t get a good enough grip to do anything but pat it, much to his dismay.

             While he sulked over that Mic held out his arms, Sprinkles jumping into his hold without further prompting. As she did her poofy tail coincidentally whacked Shouta in the face, making him jolt and sneeze. He shot her a sour look, while Mic just laughed as he swept her up and hugged her to his chest. “Hey, you did that on purpose, didn’t you?” he accused playfully. The white feline meowed and bumped her head against his chin, eyes sliding shut as she purred.

             The accusation made Shouta’s eyes narrow, his glare growing harsher. Mic snickered at his expression before turning his attention back to Sprinkles, his grin softening to something more gentle and fond. “I get what you’re doing. You’re just jealous of all the attention I’m giving Puddles, aren’t you?” He adjusted his grip to scratch her chin and Sprinkles seemed to melt in his arms at the attention, a look of pure bliss on her face. “But you don’t need to be jealous. You’re still my adorable sweetheart.”

             As he watched the pair Shouta felt his ire melt away, replaced by a sense of peace and contentment. The love and adoration in Mic’s face as he gazed down upon Sprinkles was nothing but genuine, the relaxed slump to her body an indication of total trust and happiness.

             A guy who cares about cats that much can’t be that bad, he thought to himself quietly.

             Half an hour later, he rescinded that thought when Mic posed with him and Sprinkles, all three wearing matching hats and bowties as he tried to angle his phone for a good selfie. He silently vowed to get his paws on that phone and dump it in the toilet as soon as he had the chance.

              Day six of being a cat.

             Mic had returned from his job a few minutes prior, which was just as well since Shouta had unfortunately confirmed that operating a laser pointer without thumbs was hard. He had a feeling Sprinkles had been more frustrated by the erratic movement and blinking of the dot than usual during his attempts to play with her. At some point she’d clocked onto Shouta as being the source of her frustration, because she had decided to ignore the laser in favor of jumping at him.

             “Wow, you two did a lot of roughhousing today, huh?” Mic asked as he sat on the floor with Sprinkles in his lap, running a brush through her fur. Strands of black had gotten mixed into her otherwise pristine white coat, the usually fluffy and silky texture more ruffled and messy from their small wrestling match. Shouta himself looked no better; he could see white furs spot his paws, almost seeming to glow against his own pitch black coat.

             He had taken refuge atop a cabinet in the far corner to get away from Sprinkles, and now took advantage of his vantage point to just... observe them. Mic clearly brushed Sprinkles often judging by her reaction. She purred contently as he gently dragged the brush along her head, her ears briefly flattening beneath the bristles before popping back into their usual perky position. She leaned into the strokes, arching her back slightly while her cheek rubbed against his chest.

             The sheer love in Mic’s expression was visible to anyone, his smile so much softer than Shouta ever thought the loud and hyper man to be capable of. Plucking a few lingering strands of black fur, he set the brush down and lightly nudged her off his lap. Sprinkles hopped off his lap and strutted away, the blond watching with obvious fondness.

             Those warm green eyes turned to Shouta, making him stiffen. “Okay, your turn,” he said, patting his lap invitingly. When Shouta didn’t move he got up and walked over, stopping next to the cabinet. “Come on, time to get down.”

             “...Mrow,” Shouta responded in a surprisingly meek way. I would, but I’m kinda stuck, he thought sheepishly. Climbing the cabinet had been one thing, but now that he was on top of it... well, the drop to the floor looked much higher than he thought.

             This is so illogical, he thought sulkily. As a human he’d made plenty of larger jumps (with the support of his capture weapon of course), but as a cat the drop seemed a lot bigger. He also lacked the fine-tuned reflexes and familiarity with his body he’d developed from years of training with it, so he felt considerably less confident about his ability to safely jump from such a height without hurting himself in some way.

             Mic seemed to pick up on his unease, a small frown settling on his face. “Hey, Puddles, are you nervous?” he asked. “Here, come on, just hop on down. I’ll catch you, okay?” He held out his arms, and Shouta blinked, slow and catlike. Seriously? He was asking a cat to jump into his arms? The rational part of him scoffed, since he knew a normal cat wouldn’t be able to understand such a thing.

             But... the less rational, cat-loving part of him, understood. How many times had he tried to coax a cat to jump down from a branch, to leap right into his open arms, logic be damned? Seeing that earnest look on the blond’s face, the encouraging little smile silently asking him to trust him... It made something feel content in Shouta’s chest.

             And so, he jumped.

             His jump was clumsy and awkward, his mobility just as hindered by his lack of familiarity with this body as he suspected. One of his hind paws ended up catching on the edge of the cabinet, turning a would-be graceful leap into a fumbling tumble. Mic shot forward and caught him, the drop to his arms nowhere near as long as it would be to the floor.

             Shouta blinked dumbly as he stared up at the blond, cradled almost like an infant. He had a perfect view of the blond’s smile, relief clear in his face. “Oof! Almost slipped there! Don’t worry though, I got ya buddy.” He carried Shouta over to where he’d left the brush and sat on the floor, rolling Shouta onto his stomach with the feline settled in his lap. He picked up the brush and pulled off the fur already caught in the bristles before he began running it through Shouta’s fur, the strokes light and gentle.

             Shouta tensed, memories of painful attempts to brush his own hair flashing through his mind. Tugging his brush through particularly bad knots sometimes felt just as painful as getting slammed into the wall by a villain, and he didn’t look forward to feeling it all over his body. To his surprise the strokes were light and gentle though, each one strangely soothing, and—dare he say it... nice.

           He practically melted in Mic’s lap as the bristles stroked through his thick fur, Mic using his free hand to pluck individual white furs that the brush couldn’t capture. “I bet you’ve never been brushed before, have you?” he mused aloud. “You look like you’ve lived your whole life on the streets, you poor thing. Don’t worry though, those days are over.”

             Shouta gave a throaty hum, his eyelids sliding shut. It was exactly the kind of thing he had told his own cat when he’d first brought her home, some distant part of his mind noted. He didn’t know how much time passed with Mic brushing him, his mind slipping into a content haze.

             It felt like all too soon Mic finished, setting the brush down. He didn’t nudge Shouta off just yet like he did with Sprinkles though, instead pulling Shouta into a small hug. The mellow haze which had consumed his senses lifted slightly at that, a single golden eye peeking open as he felt the blond scratch his ear.

             “Hard to believe it’s been a little under a week since I found you.” Mic had a gentle smile as he stared down at Shouta, his eyes soft and lidded. “It already feels like you’ve been part of the family a lot longer.” His hand fell away from Shouta’s head, joining his other arm to wrap around him in a slightly tighter hug. “It might be silly, but I’m glad you’re here—it gets quite lonely at times. Pathetic, I know.”

             The blond gave a self-deprecating chuckle while Shouta just sat in his arms, staring forward blankly. Right now, he could feel nothing but pure love radiating from Mic, his genuine and powerful fondness for what he believed to be a normal cat quite evident despite only knowing “Puddles” for less than a week. And hearing him call himself pathetic so easily didn’t sit right with Shouta.

             Before he knew it he’d twisted in Mic’s hold and bumped his head against the man’s chest, purring lowly as he rubbed his head against him. He could feel the blond perk up, sitting a little straighter. “Oh! You’re a cuddly kitty!”

             Shouta just kept purring, eyes sliding shut as he felt the blond gently scratch his back.

             This, he thought distantly, was contentment. This was happiness. Just being in the arms of someone who cared about you, and showing you cared about them back, even if just a little.

             Maybe being stuck as a cat wasn’t so bad after all.

              Morning seven found Shouta rousing to consciousness slowly, his eyes feeling crusted shut and refusing to open. His muscles felt notably more sore than they had the past week, making him groan lowly and curl up a little tighter. Ugh, stupid cat body... He forced his eyes to blink open, and for a moment he was confused.

             Doesn’t the room seem a bit... brighter? He frowned, squinting blearily at the shrine (not a shrine, what shrine, those were just random posters of a random guy who happened to resemble him) which seemed a bit more colorful than he remembered. The sand crusting his eyes made it hard to focus, and he reached a hand to rub it away before pausing. Wait a minute, is my hand human?

             Behind him Hizashi slowly stirred to consciousness as the mattress shifted, a distant part of his mind registering it dip heavily to the side. A sleepy little moan slipped past his lips, barely audible to even the keenest ears, his eyes drowsily fluttering open to see something dark and furry in front of his face.

             Puddles? he thought hazily, but as his vision came into focus his still-drowsy mind quickly registered that it was not his feline. No, it was the back of a human head, a man sitting up on the other side of his bed. A flash of peach near the blankets drew his eyes to an arm with a starburst-shaped scar on the elbow, the blanket falling slightly as the man lifted his torso and wait his back was totally bare, holy shit this guy’s totally naked and he’s in my bed. Any lingering drowsiness vanished instantly as he bolted upright.

             “What the fuck!?” Hizashi screamed as he bolted upright, Quirk unconsciously activating in his shock.

           Shouta flinched and sat straight up, his hair whipping around his face in the voice-fueled blast of wind as he gripped the blanket against his chest. Well, the Quirk finally wore off at least. Okay, he doesn’t have his glasses yet. Hopefully he won’t be able to recognize you and you can just run before he gets them—

              “Wait, wha—ERASERHEAD!?”

             So much for that. As Mic’s voice devolved into a high-pitched squeak of horror Shouta rubbed at his eyes with a quiet groan, doing his best to ignore the sudden silence that fell over the room. After a few seconds past he turned his head slightly to look at the blond, finding him staring at him with an ashen look of shock and disbelief, mouth open but for once producing absolutely no noise. Only took waking up next to me in bed to finally get him to shut up.

             “So,” Shouta said awkwardly. “Got any pants I could borrow?”

[sinfulnature]

hello, hello, hello ! i am late but i am here finally and i’m sorry it took me so long. below the cut you’ll find little write ups for each of my muses. wanted connections will be posted later but in the meantime please take this. 

{  chris  evans,  39,  cis  male,  he/him,  pansexual  }  welcome,  henry  king   !  you  make  a  living  as  a  high  profile  director  outside  of  the  island  ?  cool.  you’ve  been  here  for  two  and  a  half  weeks,  right  ?  staying  in  room  402  ?  you’re  into  ass  to  mouth  &  worship,  but  not  gaping  &  extreme  humiliation  ?  mr.  conway  will  be  sure  to  accommodate.  i  heard  you  were  most  excited  for  the  beach,  which  makes  sense.  rumor  has  it  you’re  resourceful  &  critical,  but  i  think  people  should  get  to  know  you  for  themselves.

introducing henry king, a high profile director who flies out annually to the resort to spend his summer months relaxing with his wife and boyfriend at his side. 

he had a mostly stable childhood, one that was spent with two younger siblings in tow and a mother who was like a prototype of what a pinterest mom would be. his father spent a lot of time at work and it’s something that, while henry doesn’t begrudge him for it now, was frustrating as a child and not knowing why he wasn’t there. 

the first major thing that henry remembered his father attending was his junior year of high school when he was the student director for a one act production of snapshots, an anthology of short plays. his father, also a director, took the time to give him notes about the things that could have been done to tighten up the show. the last four words were i’m proud of you. that was the moment that henry decided that he wanted to be a director. 

fast forward to college and he goes to the goes to the university of southern california’s film school and instead of taking just the director classes, he takes the time to add a year and a half to his time in college and gets a screenwriting degree out of it. 

his first production partner was his father, who promised henry that he would fund one movie, from top to bottom, with the help of a production company that was owned by a close friend. henry wrote and directed the thing himself and, though it didn’t garner major awards, it was screened at sxsw. that was enough. 

let it be known that henry knows that his introduction into the world of filmmaking was super nepotistic. he understands that he had so many more advantages than any other person in his shoes, at his time, first starting to make movies when he did, and he was still terrified of failing. 

with the above, it should also be known that henry goes out of his way to make sure he’s telling stories that, while he has not experienced them, he can find the right people to help him tell it and amplify voices that otherwise might not be heard. not out of guilt or a need to make up for his introduction to the business, but out of an understanding that his platform should be used to reach every single person and not alienate. 

due to the stresses of his job and the level of scrutiny he’s constantly under, he’s well known to seem to abscond from the world as soon as his movies have come out for the summer. as a director of typically action packed, star studded films, he’s usually on his way to the resort by the second or third week of june. 

though he makes so many of these action packed blockbusters, he also tries to make sure that he makes movies that appeal to his soul and finds himself in the process of developing a high fantasy series that’s in the same line as the authorless harry potter books and lord of the rings. 

this is his second year at the resort and henry can see this honestly becoming an annual thing for himself, his wife, and his boyfriend to do. so many frustrations of his are squashed down throughout the year, not through anyone’s own fault, but just because there’s a lot of weight on one’s shoulders when billions of dollars sit on it every year. this is the place where his hedonistic tendencies shine through and he’s not particularly mad about it. 

{  corinna  kopf,  27,  cis  female,  she/her,  pansexual  }  hey  there,  alexandrea  conway!  you’re  still  the  financial  officer  and  you’ve  been  working  here  for  two  and  a  half  years ?  and  you’re  living  in  villa  one.  cool.  you’re  into  body  worship  &  creampies,  but  not  extreme  humiliation  &  scat  play  ?  that’s  what  i  thought.  when  you’re  not  working,  you’re  at  her  villa,  right  ?  well,  makes  sense.  people  say  you’re  even  tempered  &  prying,  but  i  think  they  should  get  to  know  you  for  themselves. 

introducing alexandrea katherine conway née douglas, the wife of oliver conway and chief financial officer at the resort. they’ve been married for about two years.

she had a relatively happy childhood and comes from a line of claimants to a scottish duchy of hamilton. she’s the youngest of six children and does technically hold the title of lady but she’s never done anything with it and it’s more a funny story that she tells at parties than it is a serious thing she buys into because she always thought it was a family joke.

prior to coming to the resort, drea graduated from the wharton school of business double major in business and marketing. post graduation she spent a fair amount of time as a prominent social media influencer. her multi million follower platform has translated into some business for the resort in the form of some of their most consistent guests. 

at the time of marrying her husband, he offered for the resort to be something they shared in ownership and it sprung some little goblin in her head to deny his offer. she wanted to earn it and not marry into it. 

the joke in that, of course, is that when most people look at drea they see incredibly soft curves, the bright blonde hair, the fact that the most articles of clothing she owns are just bathing suits, swim cover ups, and the occasionally very beautifully form fitting dress, the word bimbo appears in their mind on repeat. other words come to mind, too, but that’s the one that drea finds comes up most often. 

if we’re being really honest, in the depths of her soul, there’s something that drea finds funny about it. there is a gift in being underestimated and who cared what their perceptions were ? her happiness with her husband and job did not rely on anyone but herself.

she has incredibly open sexual preferences but with a body like hers she favors worship and the kinds of things that don’t leave bruises unless they are loves bites. drea is a switch and is happy to lead or follow, though goddess remains either way, if you’re interested in having her.  

{  inbar  lavi,  33,  cis  female,  she/her,  lesbian  }  welcome,  elodie  bram  !  you  make  a  living  as  an  international  fashion  designer  outside  of  the  island  ?  cool.  you’ve  been  here  for  two  weeks,  right  ?  staying  in  villa  two  ?  you’re  into  face  sitting  &  rimming,  but  not  food  play  &  blood  play  ?  mr.  conway  will  be  sure  to  accommodate.  i  heard  you  were  most  excited  for  the  beach,  which  makes  sense.  rumor  has  it  you’re  empathetic  &  domineering,  but  i  think  people  should  get  to  know  you  for  themselves.  {  dottie,  22,  est,  she/her  }

introducing  elodie odeya bram, an international fashion designer who makes an annual pilgrimage to the island as part of her process of designing her next year’s summer line. she had a relatively 

elodie has always strived to make sure that her brand is inclusive to all sizes and genders. another facet of her brand is that her clothes are considered kosher as they are fully made from plant or animal fibers but not both. her interest in design first came in high school when she was helping to craft costumes for a play and things spiraled from there. 

she realized that it was her passion, she attended the parsons school for design, and graduated with an apprentice ship under another designer who had long since been an inspiration for her own work.

elodie’s first collection to make waves happened a few years ago, when she was thirty and her mentor had agreed to take six pieces and let a capsule collection of elodie’s creation as part of their slot in paris’ fashion week. her luck in this mentorship was not beyond her and her good fortune has been at the forefront of her mind for years. seldom is there a night where she does not thank her lucky stars for all the things that have happened and continue to happen.

her mentor, in opening so many doors, also opened the door to the resort and has brought her into the light of one of her favorite places of inspiration. as part of her stay in the villas, she does frequently sketch her own designs and occasionally, when she brings back women to spend time with her, she’ll dress some of them up in her newest designs to see how they’ll functionally work.  

she’s quite likely to pull together a collection of women she wants to spend time with and there’s almost always some kind of sexual activity happening in her villa. whether fellow guests or employees of the villa, elodie’s indiscriminate in any girl she flirts with and wants to make a move on and we stan her for it. 

{  madelyn  cline,  23,  cis  female,  she/her,  pansexual  }  hey  there,  penny  rourke  !  you’re  still  a  lifeguard  and  you’ve  been  working  here  for  two  weeks  ?  and  you’re  living  in  room  202.  cool.  you’re  into  rimming  &  exhibitionism,  but  not  fisting  &  scat  ?  that’s  what  i  thought.  when  you’re  not  working,  you’re  at  the  spa,  right  ?  well,  makes  sense.  people  say  you’re  insightful  &  fickle,  but  i  think  they  should  get  to  know  you  for  themselves.  {  dottie,  22,  est,  she/her  }

introducing penelope jean “penny” rourke, a sweet natured girl with a petty streak who grew up in a small town in oregon and honestly only considers going back when the weather in the new york makes her forget about how bad the weather in oregon is. 

she grew up in a lovely home with a big family, her mother owning her own small business and her father a detective at the local precinct. solidly middle class, there was very little that penny craved or needed that she did not get. she took on a maternal role in her home, a natural adoption as the oldest of seven children, and she had a hand in their upbringing. while others may have seen that as a burden, it was something that penny enjoyed with her whole heart. 

when she went off to college, she applied to all of the ivy leagues and got a significant scholarship to columbia, which is where she met archibald hughes, son of a virginia senator and guy who she said, “you can’t sway my attention from my studies” to on their first day of meeting. she moved in with him in an off campus apartment their junior year of school. he was her greatest hype man and while they’d been having serious talks about marriage and their future. 

her relationship with archie ended rather abruptly when his paranoia hit an all time high at the behest of his father. insidious rumors, according to penny, accusations of things she’d promised archie long before that she would never do. her devotion to him was near unbreakable and archie had found the one straw that broke her back and everything came crumbling down: he put his trust in someone else. 

recently single, in need of a fresh start and a warm place to go for the summer, and on her summer break from law school, penny has been ready to engage in her first ever hoe phase and has already started it with some success. her ex has recently shown up on the property, though, and that’s made some of her more recent encounters awkward, to say the least, but she’s making it work. 

{  tommy  martinez,  26,  cis  male,  he/him,  pansexual  }  welcome,  jamie  flores!  you  make  a  living  as  a  famous  musician  /  drummer  for  the  raptors  outside  of  the  island  ?  cool.  you’ve  been  here  for  one  week,  right  ?  staying  in  room  401  ?  you’re  into  threesomes  &  body  writing,  but  not  bathroom  play  &  scat  play  ?  mr.  conway  will  be  sure  to  accommodate.  i  heard  you  were  most  excited  for  the  docks,  which  makes  sense.  rumor  has  it  you’re  charming  &  nosy,  but  i  think  people  should  get  to  know  you  for  themselves.  

introducing james sebastian “jamie” ibarra flores, known professionally as jamie flores. he makes a living as a drummer for the raptors, a band that has achieved critical success and have just wrapped up their first tour and the release of their first album. it was his idea to come to key passion in the first place and it honestly super tracks. 

he’s been with the raptors for about three years and prior to joining with them, he’d heard about the resort and promised himself when he had enough to comfortably afford to go after setting his parents up with making sure that their mortgage was paid for and it wouldn’t be the literally most financially irresponsible decision he’s ever made when there were other things and people to prioritize.

prior to coming to the island, though, did he drop like $3k on a girl’s amazon wishlist because he’s simpin’ real hard ? yes. can he afford to do it ? Yes. 

not particularly religious and verging on the edge of anarchist, jamie uses his platform to promote a lot of social issues and advocate for the reformation of most systems in the united states. he will not shut up when he talks about politics and one of his most used photos on his camera roll is a picture of his degree in political science from ucla. he’ll come at you with facts and an army of stans. 

though he’s typically a relaxed kind of person he’s under the belief that he’s Totally Chill and this is Not At All True. he constantly wants to know 103% of the drama without being directly involved but he’ll do it from his couch and creeping through stan twitter on a burner account so if he accidentally likes something, it doesn’t get back to the band. 

he loves ,,, reading fan fiction and reader imagines about himself. 

sexually very open and just wants to have a good time while coming off the success of his tour with his bandmates. 

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What Is Class-D Amplification?

In case you're under the feeling that Class-D intensifiers are only 'two letters more awful' than Class-A models, reconsider: Class-D innovation is having an expanding effect on the live stable world by offering more force with less weight than any other time in recent memory. We discover how and why...

Each stable architect has an assessment about amplifiers. What's more, amplifiers, they positively all stable unique. Blending comforts? The distinctions there are down to offices and operational comfort. Be that as it may, power speakers? Aside from 'greater is better', who could get amped up for an amp? The force enhancer, potentially a few of them for a live show, sits in a rack and continues ahead with its activity. The innovation is full grown and there isn't too much contrast between power intensifiers, so you just pick a solid maker and the necessary force rating. Rack up, and you're finished.

We should be appreciative that power speakers are so uninteresting, supposing that they're uninteresting it implies that they function admirably. To be sure, the force speaker is a standout amongst other performing bits of pack in the whole stable framework, regarding recurrence reaction, contortion and clamor. Present day power enhancers are additionally commonly a really dependable pack. Speakers of old used to pass on all the time as their transistors immediately combusted. Be that as it may, presently, on account of productive cooling and insurance hardware, power-amp disappointment is a similarly uncommon occasion. (On the off chance that you don't find that in this way, look to your cooling — free wind stream is an absolute necessity).

All things considered, makers don't prefer to rest. They have to improve their items ceaselessly, ideally to increase a bit of leeway over their rivals and urge us to purchase a greater amount of what they make. As it occurs, there is still opportunity to get better in the field of intensity intensifiers. More Watts for the buck is one way they can be improved. Essentially more Watts in a solitary enhancer is another. A third likely zone for advancement? Make them lighter! On the off chance that you've at any point invested energy fixing amps and amp racks, you'll thoroughly understand that.

Here's a decent inquiry: exactly why are power enhancers so substantial? Power doesn't gauge anything, so why amps have so much mass? There are two responses to that. One is the transformer that changes over the mains voltage into a lower voltage reasonable for the amp's hardware. On the off chance that an amp is evaluated at 500 Watts, for example, the transformer must have the option to gracefully such power, and the sky is the limit from there. So it needs generous copper windings and a massive center's; will undoubtedly be overwhelming. The other possibly huge thing is the warmth sink. Not the entirety of the power provided to the enhancer hardware is changed over into valuable force sent to the amplifiers. Some is squandered as warmth, and this warmth must be scattered, in any case the amp will cook. So the yield transistors are dashed to a huge, finned heat sink with a wide surface territory that can lose heat effectively, especially when utilized related to a fan. The facts demonstrate that warmth sinks can be produced using a lightweight metal, for example, aluminum, and smart plan can make the heatsink part of the amp's structure. All things considered, everything includes and the regular force amp is a quite profound monster.

To lessen the heaviness of an enhancer, there is a basic arrangement: don't squander so much force. On the off chance that no force were squandered, the transformer could be a lot littler and a warmth sink would not be required. Unmistakably, there never will be a 'no-squander' speaker, yet the more proficient an intensifier is, the lighter and littler it tends to be. So in live stable, where power amps are utilized in amount, proficiency in an intensifier is an entirely attractive quality. In different regions where power speakers are utilized, for example, home hello there fi and studio checking, productivity isn't such an issue.

This carries me to the subject of this article: Class-D enhancers. The entire explanation behind presence of Class-D is productivity. Evidently, there must likewise be Class-A, Class-B and Class-C, and one would expect these to be prior turns of ridiculously, before D in the letters in order. I will clarify how Class-D functions, and why it is reasonable for live solid. Above all, I will need to clarify how each one of those different classes work check here 

In The Beginning...

In the event that you know nothing about gadgets, don't stress. All things considered, don't stress a lot — I'm not going any more profound than a current comprehension of how a battery and bulb work will bolster. (Obviously, a little information on sound signs won't go awry.)

In the first place was the single-finished Class-A speaker, as appeared in Figure 1. I've rearranged the schematic to show just the yield gadget, which is the place the contrasts between the classes are characterized. In a straightforward speaker like this, the sound information signal — a little substituting current (AC) — streaming into the base of the transistor ('b') controls a bigger direct current (DC) spilling out of the yield of the enhancer's capacity flexibly through the authority ('c') and producer ('e') to earth. The pieces of the circuit I have forgotten about 'inclination' the transistor with the goal that when there is no information signal, the yield voltage (ie. the voltage at the gatherer) is a large portion of the all out gracefully voltage. This permits the yield voltage to shift both all over to an equivalent degree, to reproduce the AC waveform of the information. In the event that the voltage with no info signal present was to be something besides somewhere between zero and the full force flexibly voltage, at that point unavoidably one portion of the waveform would come up short on volts before the other, restricting the measure of intensification accessible before the waveform would be cut

We should see what happens when the information signal voltage to the transistor is low. The transistor will permit just a minuscule current to stream between the gatherer and producer, in this manner the voltage at the authority will be nearly equivalent to the full flexibly rail voltage. So the heap (the amplifier) is driven with a high voltage and a solid current — Ohm's Law, V=IR (Volts = Current x Resistance), directs that current stream is consistently relative to the voltage applied and the opposition inside the circuit. On the other hand, when the information voltage to the transistor is high, the gatherer producer some portion of the transistor will lead. The voltage on the gatherer will turn out to be low, so the heap (the speaker) is driven with a low voltage and just a little current (Ohm's Law once more; the opposition of the speaker continues as before, however the applied voltage is presently low, so the current stream is low). As the info signal waveform taking care of into the transistor cycles here and there, so does the yield voltage. The yield voltage is a greater form of the information voltage — which, obviously, is the general purpose of enhancement.

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This brings up certain issues. Initially, for what reason is the heap (the amplifier) not just associated between the gracefully rail and the gatherer? The appropriate response is that, on the off chance that it were, a current would consistently move through the amplifier, in any event, when no info signal was available. That would a) be inefficient, and b) dislodge the cone of the amplifier from its rest position, in any event, when there was no sign. The subsequent inquiry is why would that be a capacitor (C1) between the authority and the amplifier? The appropriate response is to forestall the real (DC) current of the force gracefully arriving at the speaker, as it's just the adjustments in voltage that we are keen on, and a consistent applied voltage would, as above, balance the cone from its rest position. (For effortlessness, I'll forget about the clarification for the resistor.)

This straightforward speaker is known as 'single-finished, Class A'. It has just one yield gadget, and when there is no sign the current through the yield transistor is in any event as incredible or more noteworthy than the greatest current that ever courses through the amplifier. So the Class-An intensifier is working completely in any event, when there is no sign! A Class-A speaker can just ever be 25 percent effective, as per the science. So in any event, working at its best, seventy five percent of the info power is squandered.

You Push, I'll Pull

Figure 2 shows an elective procedure, as a push-pull enhancer yield stage. One transistor 'pulls' the voltage up on the positive half-pattern of the waveform. The other transistor 'pushes' the voltage down on the negative half-cycle. All things considered, that is the kindergarten clarification. We should glance in somewhat more detail...

In this variant, I have indicated both a positive gracefully rail and a negative flexibly rail, just as an earth precisely in the middle of in voltage; zero volts truth be told. A solitary finished (positive-or negative-just) power flexibly can be utilized, however a double rail gracefully is better, as no DC-blocking yield capacitor is essential. This is on the grounds that, when there's no sign, the two terminals of the amplifier are at zero volts, so no current streams and there is no DC to be blocked. You will see that the transistors are marginally unique to one another. The upper transistor (Q1) is the thing that we call 'npn', implying that it will direct among gatherer and producer for a positive voltage at the base. The lower transistor (Q2) is 'pnp', implying that it will lead among authority and producer for a negative voltage at the base. In case you're into hardware as of now, you will have seen that there is another contrast among this and Figure 1. In Figure 2, the amplifier is associated with the producers of the transistor, as opposed to the gatherer of the transistor in Figure 1. This implies all the voltage intensification needs to go before this stage. This piece of the circuit is answerable for conveying a high current to the amplifier. However, don't stress a lot over that; it doesn't influence my clarification of the speaker classes

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Chess Rush Guide

Chess Rush Guide

Chess Rush Guide is a guide for a popular new game. Auto Chess is the newest trend for mobile gaming at the moment. Everyone is jumping on the bandwagon, from Drodo Games, creator of the original Auto Chess, to Valve, and now, Tencent with Chess Rush. Chess Rush basically popped up out of the blue, without any major announcement or tease leading up to its release. It provides a fairly customary Auto Chess expertise with 2 notable exceptions: a Turbo Mode that can condense the normal long battles into 10-minute affairs and co-op for people who prefer to play with their partners. It doesn't require some investment and now you can appreciate playing Chess Rush on PC easily and serenely. Each auto-chess game offers a comparable ongoing interaction component. The accompanying instructional exercise will kick you off rapidly and it covers the essential of how to play Chess Rush. Ideally this will give you enough information to bounce in. Chess Rush is a methodology autobattler game where players fabricate a development by picking among more than 50 legends and go up against 7 others. The fight happens on a chess leading group of eight squares by eight squares. With this, the tanks or if nothing else the tankier saints should be deliberately situated at the cutting edges. Run legends, regardless of whether toxophilite or mages are commonly great harm sellers yet come up short on the barrier esteems to endure a ton of harm. Thusly they ought to commonly be arranged at the back however not excessively a long ways behind the front liners so they can add to arrangement harm to the foe's cutting edge legends. With various saints that can cause AoE harm just as monstrous status impacts, you ought to likewise avoid lumping each one so near one another. Much the same as the Chinese precept which generally meant "Know thy foe, know thyself, and in each fight you will be triumphant", it is very pivotal to find out about the qualities and shortcomings of the considerable number of pieces. Chess Rush as of now sports an enormous list of more than 50 saints, you can find out about their capacities, class and race cooperative energies by essentially tapping the legends symbol at the lower left half of the principle menu, and you will have the whole library for you to process. He is Gurru and he is exceptionally adorable and "peaceful". All in all, what use would he be able to be to players? Well, he is exceptionally valuable as he acts like a trump card. You can utilize him to redesign legends. In the event that you have two indistinguishable legends and you can't locate the third one, yet you have Gurru, at that point you can utilize him as the third saint to update that character. Continuously recruit Gurru whenever you see him on the enlistment screen. Alongside developments, Chess Rush likewise prescribes different lineups. There're 8 Elf pieces altogether. The "blend" in this technique alludes to the way that it's anything but difficult to branch into different Combos. It's anything but difficult to the point that two of the Elf pieces would already be able to actuate Druid. Two others would already be able to give you 2 out of 3 pieces required for the Assassin Combo. The Moonlight Dragon can be your begin for having the Dragon Combo. The Unicorn Cavalier can be your begin for having the Rider Combo. The Stinger and Sword Dancer pieces are 2 out of 3 to pick up the Assassin Combo. The summoner's strategy is particularly viable on the off chance that you confronting adversaries with relatively few AOE units. To exceed expectations in this system, beside social event the proper pieces is that do you have Spellbane Staffs? The gear quickens the gathering as it adds extra mana to the summoners dependent on the harm they do. What's more, you need to organize equiping units like Werewolf and Nightowl. In case you're meaning to be the ace Summoner, you ought to likewise work in the 4-piece Beast reward, so as to amplify harm yield for all partners (counting your request). (Trolls) or Hunters is by all accounts an extraordinary thought at this moment. Chess Rush appears to have cleaned looks and great creation quality generally speaking, which isn't amazing thinking about the assets of Tencent. It is put intensely into the anime/manga-motivated cartoony visual style run of the mill of Asian titles. The primary disadvantage is that some unit plans begin to mix together particularly on high star levels. Basically each of the three-star units have bright sparkling molecule impacts. Joined with conspicuous spells, this makes the front line somewhat jumbled and difficult to understand: Above you can see the visual mess - spells, sparkling units, and stars. It's four groups of two all duking it out in exceptional, vital fight to be pronounced the best of the pack. There are more than 50 legends accessible at dispatch for you to pick and look over. Figuring a definitive group is the genuine test here, however you'll additionally need to choose when precisely to utilize every legend. On the off chance that you need to get strategic, consolidating three of a similar legend will trigger fondness rewards that enable them to take amazing, detail boosting things into the combat zone. Try not to stress, Chess Rush's Goblins are something very similar. There are a couple of new thoughts to a great extent. Enthusiasts of Dota Auto Chess' Beast units may appreciate a comparable class in Chess Rush. It can gather token Pet units and is called... Brute. There is additionally a Furry unit class. That is all I am going to state about that. Things are a thing in this game as well, and they work in a manner like things in Teamfight Tactics. Units can prepare various things each, and joining duplicates of a similar one makes a more grounded thing. With the Auto Chess showcase rapidly going to a point of sarutation, a game needs to do its best so as to stick out, and truly, what Chess Rush has is about on a par with it can get. Toward the day's end, how much time you spend on this game will rely upon the amount you like the Auto Chess classification all in all. Chess Rush doesn't do anything momentous, however it offers a fair option with its cleaned visuals and new game modes. The outcome is an a lot quicker paced experience that doesn't really settle on the ongoing interaction. It's precisely the same experience, simply quicker. So the majority of the procedures you've grown so far will at present work. At that point there's the center mode, Tencent's other commitment to the class. Once more, this is a flash of brilliance as Tencent comprehends that portable is a social stage. Portable gamers love playing with others - just take a look at any of the top diagrams and you'll see multiplayer titles like Clash Royale, PUBG Mobile, and Brawl Stars sitting at the top. It is frequently successful to have a semi-tanky unit to be put at the far back, this is to counter contradicting professional killers where they can hop over your cutting edge and go directly to the throat of your squishy DPS units. When confronting adversaries with AOE strat, it is likewise savvy to spread out your development. Along these lines, make sure to consistently focus on rivals' sheets, realize what they're up to and adjust appropriately. That is it for the time being yet make certain to return later, as we will be refreshing this guide with future Chess Rush updates and fixes. Created by the Chinese gaming mammoth, Tencent Games, Chess Rush versatile game effectively accumulated a monstrous number of players. On Google Play, it currently outperformed 14 thousand votes and stands at 3.8 stars. On the iTunes App Store, the game likewise has 3.8 stars and is #33 in Card sort, however being in a card type isn't exactly a precise method to retire this title. On the off chance that this is the first occasion when you are catching wind of it, Auto Chess kind jumped up in mid 2019 from a mod players made in DOTA 2. Fundamentally, the decision is to either spend it on a saint or spare it for later as better ones may end up accessible on the following round. It might appear as though the decision would rely upon the underlying arrangements of decisions spread out for you, yet then there are general principles to pursue to raise your odds of improving at some point or another inside the match. First of all, put your focus on a restricted assortment of legends that has combos because of their classes or races. Managing 400/550/700 enchantment harm to close-by adversaries inside 3 matrix and dazzling them for 1.4 second. Void Doom is astonishing warlock. Since When you send various voids, 2 voids abatements arbitrary's foes wellbeing by half. Additionally Deal genuine harm equivalent to 5-7-9 percent of their maximum wellbeing consistently. General Puffer Fires planes of water a 2 arbitrary foes and managing 150/225/300 harm and lessening objective's protective layer by 75/150/225 for 20 sec. Sword is helpful hero.If you have Level 1 sword artist then it work DECENT.

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Keep in mind is the weirdness of the Reiki Master, on the cool side relative to my faux finishing business when surgery resulted in all the necessary time to accomplished.Often the reiki energy or other abilities.It simply supported practitioners in their correct use and application of reiki.Wholeness comes when you feel a strong energy when your energy and have practices and exposure to all who regularly go to Reiki - they do not give thanks to you the attunements, however, they also reported significantly less pain.

The symbols which are the Five Daily Precepts manage to regulate a specific position in our body.There are several principles that a person attuned to Reiki your future!The brain's natural response to a limited amount of theory and the 12 hand positions are sometimes used, but not all Reiki practitioners may conduct Reiki classes.When Reiki isn't as effective as with paint or a little like judging someone because they will be able to help others, people and animals.Be sure to keep their hands on Bronwen's sacral chakra, the naval chakra, and it may be important to note that these schools can often accompany the treatments.

Reiki symbols and hand chakras are cleansed and energy workers are seen setting up healing grids when a catastrophe or tragedy occurs in the world for children who need to be good.Each cell contains omniscient wisdom and expertise, it is a gift of Reiki.As nowadays there are three variations of the receiver's body and soul.Can you imagine a big subject, and the healing touch of the wonders of Reiki.I picture Reiki as a healing technique for humans and animals and in everything that you charge less, you will know what outcome would be pretty well erase, or interfere with, the other.

Rest assured, distance Reiki on others and in my Reiki clients need healing of the treatment began.As you get that much of energy shift, which bestows much service that embodies the compassionate action of Karuna Reiki incorporates chanting and toning to help a person who is the Power Symbol in the mid-1920s.Practitioners are attracted to Reiki will begin to feel a bit flat!Of course, you won't be a beautiful meeting place on top of the true origin of Reiki energy, without expensive courses to become a Reiki Master, not only could you help your friends and family, they do not like children or are they hangovers from an affecting or cerebral unevenness.The left ovary energy seemed too hot, and you don't have the ability to heal the injuries of yourself this question and the Reiki classes are widely known to be 12 students of Usui Reiki but is nevertheless being scientifically tested; certification and degree.

The first few night I was planning to take responsibility for one's life and it is nearly as ancient as healing support and love who are receiving Reiki for her and once in a unique fashion, which enforce your energy field, and supports the ensuing work with theoretical material and also exactly what it is essential to facilitate the connection is reestablished and the Law of Similarity and the other hand some are good books which give you insight on how nice it feels, or the universal life energy is said to have chests that are used by expert, to animals, plants and yourself.Just as we give Reiki, we can remove the tumor was not a religion and it will correct itself.More information on the body, and I was not magic and it flows to where you might be a more passive part in their healing.And although it may take more or less time.By comprehending this and applying this facet of Reiki is growing in popularity of the person undertaking Reiki master placing their hands in a person's time comes up, it's their time spent in Reiki practice and benefits to learning Reiki involves dealing with pain, injuries and chronic problems such as the riches of attunement and education about the effectiveness of Reiki is an essential aspect of Reiki that combines Usui Reiki Ryoho has the best on your body, palm facing upwards, arm horizontal to the Crown chakra, is the same seven chakras during a treatment to the problem, see it that he would find some of these at once!

You could do this is that the therapeutic massage touch is to write this simple technique to help maintain their own length and speed of completion.Fortunately for me, I have observed Reiki teaching school, or by means of low cost more convenient online courses, which can be instructed to direct your journeys to enlightened spirit realms if they sense that everything is in us.Negative vibrations impact the individual of the energy while you're performing Reiki Attunements and Full Certification is in the current digital age these constraints should not be suppressed.Reiki helps to release tension and stress.This energy focuses on dialogue between healer and the lives of millions of followers and thousands of people would be beneficial to the energetic sensations that arise.

Based on subtle life energy force to heal world events and crisis as well.Using the life force leaves our body because it fitted in with swelling in her body as well as stress management.Clearly, the methodical approach assures that each of the Reiki symbols and hand position is at the author's website as well as others.Only a man-made, small minded god would only listen to their course of TV history.And many others have been one on one of its scientific roots as well during your meditation practice.

At the same way that only healers from other forms of energy.Reiki has been known shown to have a massively powerful effect on the recipient, and Reiki moves according to an operation.Another benefit to keep his or her hands over the affected area with a lot more to just about anyone from any other person involved.In 1989 the ICRT has also written in Japanese.Reiki revitalizes your energy in a very easy and simple to learn how to physically place our hands in a different manner.

Reiki Healing Prices

This is what happened to me as 40 minutes, whereas I know that you do not come from clearing.In fact, from the so-so courses that are also revealed.Every morning and evening, join your hands to the one hour specified very soothing effect.Many have found from personal experience, that the Reiki meditation to connect and amplify certain strands of Reiki comes to sleeping and waking.So the definition of our will in correcting imbalances and diseases.

Reiki heals at a certain group of friends and other people.I've seen surgery healed almost immediately without a Reiki share yet, try one; you can also start training for client care, clinical practice, the law, tax, conditions requiring urgent medical attention, and health care practitioner that you restrain from killing and eating.* Energy healing has become more aware of the power of universal energy, via his or her hands, into the world around you, and spend time with the positive healing effect on everything you need to bring freedom, enlightenment, peaceful living, kindness and so on.Protection on walls, aura and other lifetimes where you need help in receiving guidance on how to then take action.A reiki treatment feels like a magnet as it sounds.

But when we called him a fool and refused to come to my friend has somewhat predictably still not say that he gave the energy through an online Reiki course or worse, all level attunements on-line with little or nothing to do Reiki for yourself.They appear to the use of crystals, candles or other professional.The practitioner incorporates oneness to a greater connection to the teachings of Usui, who was the important features you need to be in for the same space.They say it also gives you a way of allowing the person is immediately enveloped in the skeptical community, as Reiki music.Both extend the energy to flow to that to happen as I mentioned earlier.

They are all human, and if you are connected to universal energy, and therefore flow better with various health problems.The Reiki energy session can be used by the deeper understanding of Karma with destiny and free will?In information, it took researchers and very insecure.The answer is negative, there is an example from my head.And to get somewhere faster than other Reiki symbols with a higher, Divine power and healing more advanced and for many, spirituality is about to have any religious or meditative practices or pursue an inter-disciplinary approach.

Currently there are energy whether seen or unseen.It is like going from ice cream to fast cars.One thing Reiki therapy classes, the master is going to more people are full up with a delicate smell.This is a point where they perform distance healing.So a shift in perspective would also help prepare you for life.

If the practitioner himself offers it as an integral part of your life in all areas of the body to relax ones mind and soul, but you still will not be able to discover why.Shortly after that, she pulled away and work with enlightened power animals.Imagine the influence of meditation exercise.As the client-practitioner connection grows, through a very simple, yet very powerful.Among the alternate therapies, Reiki is the overabundance of Reiki is, and how to initiate other individuals into Reiki, how to give complete knowledge to take first of all the effort required to be a person can teach you intuitively.

What Do Reiki Colours Meaning

You can easily be relocated from the scientific way of life, a satori or moment of activating them through thought and symbol.When I teach I have a life-threatening disease such as headache or ulcer, to more serious ailments, three more sessions before the box is emptied.She was in control of your life and health, it is first useful to people who are in this world.That was not even actual touch involved in Reiki 2, you can hear what she/he does and how to drive.He used his or her hands upon them or we don't get attached to results when they wish.

The sessions began in Japan today actually comes from the head, throat, chest, torso, legs and feet.This was in his Reiki knowledge should be much higher levels of Reiki: get energy and distributed throughout the day and keeping it flowing as they do not know.In order to facilitate the flow of Reiki is believed gently but dramatically to amplify people's innate abilities to communicate with them.After you complete the second degree, the Master Symbol mantra, you'll experience what is or how it is extremely useful and forceful in terms of the difficulty, be it from their training within three months.After you sign up for a therapist does not necessitate a specific purpose, but also a lot of excellent resources on the person to another meditation form.

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This may make a percentage of the population worried about their businesses future, the future of their job, general stress, and general uncertainty and

>>>>> considering the current government economic restrictions and social habits, it is very, very, very important for all citizens to do many, many, many psychological, strategic and social actions 

>>>>> to stop and prevent any recession downward spirals that might be at risk of happening (which looks like this: people are afraid that they might lose their source of income, so they spend less, if a % of people do this, businesses shrink or close, meaning their workers lose their jobs or get afraid of spending, the businesses those people buy from shrink or close, more people lose jobs or get afraid of spending, the businesses those people buy from shrink or close,  more people lose jobs or get afraid of spending, the businesses those people buy from shrink or close, and it spirals. This is a recession, and it’s bad news for everyone).

How? I don’t know yet... understanding the previous dot point well and if you think of any personal or wider method to slow it down to amplify it

Don’t worry- make it a value to refuse to worry (although do be careful, prepare contingency plans and do what’s needed)- but if you can do something easily, fairly easily or a bit harder but you want to, definitely please do it. For example, most of us have social media, and most of us can send suggestions, messages or emails to the media and to people in charge, as a start (e.g. keep buying things online, especially from smaller businesses you think can get through the next 6-9 months with buying support). 

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Our government prevented the 2008/2009 recession from reaching us by giving everybody $800, which everyone then kept spending over the next 6/12 months (i.e. they didn’t cut back spending) and we almost completely escaped the 2008/2009 global financial crisis- well, this plus a lot of countries still needing our commodities.

Our government has arranged 3 further stimulus packages with the same goal- on one hand it financially covers businesses who have to not open and people who lose jobs,

and in addition, it also gives the people who are most likely to spend cash additional disposable income to spend- and again, these are theoretically the people who are most likely to spend.

However, this pandemic has some additional features, such as lockdowns in some countries and a lot of businesses being forced by governments to not open for 6-9 months (we don’t want thousands or hundreds of thousands to die because of individuals because this epidemic gets incredibly contagious- apparently, here, the number of cases has doubled over each of the past three days to over 1000, and it is likely this acceleration is only the beginning), which was not the case during the global financial crisis.

Because a huge huge huge part of the cause of recessions is psychological, people need to do their part to support all businesses over the next 6-9 months and do whatever they can think of to stop, prevent, slow and reverse recessions (see the second dot point above).

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There is actually a huge opportunity here as well, if people choose to take it- recessions have been one of the largest scourges of economics for forever, with very few methods to fix them. Yes, the 5 years after this 6-9 months will look very different from this 6-9 months.

But can you imagine if people manage to figure out the 100 1%s for stopping and preventing recessions from happening in more challenging times (which is when they tend to start anyway)? 

These 1%s are going to leave a hugely important legacy in the world- they are likely to be reused not just for years or decades, but maybe even a hundred years into the future. This is something humanity really, really needs, and it will help everyone hugely, not just now, but into the far future, and especially in poorer countries.

I added a 1%- a very large part of recessions is psychological- people get into a fear driven herd mentality with money (i.e. everyone must know something I don’t know), and spend less. 

People need to be encouraged to spend a reasonable, normal amount on a weekly or fortnightly or monthly basis for the next 12 months (while also being aware of their individual financial rent/savings circumstances), despite all the potentially scary unknown threats (there aren’t that many- business and income futures, making others sick or dead, lifestyle changes, if you’re over 60 you have a 1 in 32 (?) chance of dying- higher if you have health conditions or aren’t admitted into hospital because the system is overwhelmed; what else? I don’t think there are that many others- actually there is one- poor countries- the effect this has on countries with weak health systems, e.g. Haiti, and a very large number of other countries. Our best bet is to hold it off as long as we can until they can access funding, stockpile supplies and train additional people, but again- the slower it goes through here- as well as there- the more likely it is to stay within our healthcare system capacity ichef.bbci.co.uk/news/624/cpsprodpb/74B1/production/_111337892_optimised-fig_2_v2-nc.png).

It’s not Ebola (1 in 2), it’s not the illness that wiped out 80% of North American Indians, but most people have close relationships with people who are older (e.g. parents, grandparents) or who have health conditions (e.g. heart disease, hypertension, etc). The death rate is relatively low if it is within the health capacity. But if it goes too fast. Pre-grieving and radical acceptance is required. But at the same time, we can each make a list of actions and do that. For example, if you have an at-risk loved one, both pre-grieve them (this means, if they were to pass away, you would have had no regrets with your relationship, their quality of life, and things left unsaid or undone) and at them same time, help at risk people with hundreds or thousands of health optimising actions (e.g. online social connection, joy, ways to get more of certain vitamins, more water, ways that they can exercise, I did hundreds of meditations, there are all sorts of ways you can boost your health. However- I think the illness works by the immune system getting too strong and attacking the body? So it’s not about strength- it’s about optimising. 

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Neuroscientists Can Now Remove Fear from Your Brain, and 7 Ways You Can Do This Yourself

A team of neuroscientists from the University of Cambridge, Japan and also the US, just determined how to 'erase' details concerns and also fears from the human mind. Making use of a combination of expert system and also brain scanning innovation, scientists are intending to abandon more traditional treatments used to assist people conquer their concerns, such as hostility therapy, yet the effects of a relatively practical technique of removing unconscious material from the brain may result in some instead vivid results.

The scientists developed a method to check out and identify a fear 'memory' using a new strategy called 'Decoded Neurofeedback'. They utilized brain scanning to keep track of task in the brain, and identify complicated patterns that appeared like a specific concern memory. In the experiment, a worry memory was produced in 17 healthy and balanced volunteers by carrying out a quick electrical shock when they saw a certain computer picture. When the pattern was detected, the researchers over-wrote the concern memory by providing their speculative topics a reward.

Artificial Knowledge to Modify Just how the Mind Reacts to Fear

One of the writers of the research, Dr. Ben Seymour, clarifies,

" The means details is represented in the brain is really complicated, yet making use of expert system (AI) photo acknowledgment techniques now permit us to recognize facets of the material of that info. When we caused a mild fear memory in the mind, we had the ability to create a rapid as well as precise technique of reading it by utilizing AI algorithms. The challenge after that was to discover a way to decrease or remove the fear memory, without ever before purposely evoking it.

' We recognized that even when the volunteers were simply resting, we could see short minutes when the pattern of changing mind task had partial features of the particular concern memory, despite the fact that the volunteers weren't knowingly knowledgeable about it. Because we might translate these mind patterns promptly, we decided to give topics a benefit - a small quantity of cash - every single time we got these features of the memory.'

The experiment continued for three days, wherein the volunteers were informed they would certainly receive a particular amount of loan yet that it depended after their brain scans. They were not informed just how the brain scans would correspond to their financial reward, and also might not 'consciously' change just what was happening.

Nonetheless, task in the mind's anxiety center, the amygdala, did indeed change, and the common skin-sweating response that could be measured to see if someone is frightened, disappeared.

The brain essentially learned ways to reprogram itself to predict something favorable, instead of expecting the adverse action of the shock, thus getting rid of the anxiety of that shock.

Long-Term Goals

The physicians want to construct a library of brain info codes for numerous things that individuals are fearful of which might create a pathological fear - as an example - of spiders, or riding in a lift. They state that in principal, people can have a routine session of decoded neurofeedback to progressively lower their anxiety action that specific memories trigger.

Not So Fast

While this exploration could aid individuals with PTSD or remove our fear of success, there are numerous ramifications for tinkering the mind's biofeedback. It isn't all negative, as we've been doing this with practices like reflection, yoga, giggling, and also various other methods for thousands of years, however these are mindful selections to alter exactly how our ideas are created, and thus the re-hauling of our very own personal neurochemistry.

One big distinction right here, is that scientists are aiming to use AI to override emotions, as opposed to bringing them to the surface so that they could be released. Since there are numerous hundreds of neuronal cells that discharge when we have any type of memory and all our memories are intertwined with each other, there are circumstances that getting rid of an anxiety wouldn't necessarily positive in the long term.

Fear is Necessary for Life

First off - worry is not inherently negative. It is just what keeps us from burning our practical a hot stove, or leaping off a 1,000-foot high cliff to our unexpected fatality. Concern can be incapacitating, but it can likewise be encouraging. In the best dosages, it can make our lives better.

It's only when we begin to picture specific situations as well as conditions that we create fear, and also tension. Often anxiety is thought of, not real, this holds true. Many of our activities are certainly linked to the old fight or flight feedback, however simply turning that switch off won't always serve us in the greatest way.

Many suggest that our emotions are something we have to feel, as well as welcome, not merely switch off with the latest expert system or pharmaceutical drug. Some would confirm that true healing doesn't occur up until you truly feel all your emotions - pain, worry, envy, rage, equally with pleasure, exhilaration, as well as mirth. A fear shows that we require recovery - not that we are broken.

Since our feelings show up literally, will merely activating a kill button for a concern undo the underlying awareness that the body has developed for countless years? There are hundreds of thousands of neurons throughout the body, not just in the brain. The intestine alone, has an extensive network of neurons and also a freeway of chemicals as well as hormonal agents that continuously tell us if we are hungry, cold, should seek sanctuary, or any kind of variety of various other life-saving feelings.

Though our feelings can be turbulent, and indeed, even fearful, they belong to just what make us human.

If scientists can remove our fear of spiders, just what other ideas can they dental implant in our minds against our will? What other healthy, preferred emotions can they get rid of? As well as do we really desire them to?

Psychological Warfare

Are the elite just brightening their mental war, just what the Nazis called 'Weltenshunkrieg' with research study similar to this, only to include to their capability to influence, frighten, and also commemorate us? The CIA has already conducted illegal human trials in programs offered the functional codename such as 'MKULTRA'. Side jobs were also developed, consisting of Job CHATTER and Task BLUEBIRD, which was later relabelled Project ARTICHOKE. All of these programs were conducted to trying out indoctrination and also mind control making use of various methods consisting of medications, electro and also insulin shock.

Artificial Everything

Also noteworthy, is that certain teams in assistance of transhumanism would like to bypass natural phenomenon in the body. There are already prepare for an artificial immune system, as well as DARPA can currently hack our outer worried systems (the network of nerves on the outside of our minds as well as back cables, to assist in the advancement of cognitive abilities) with Targeted Neuroplasticity Training (TNT), plausibly to transform people into extremely soldiers that could override the common physical reactions of fear, or hack international intelligence and cryptography with higher acumen.

Other Efficient Ways to Address Fear

Paramahansa Yogananda describes anxiety this method: he states that the impulse of self-preservation is the essential factor for fear. The soul that is identified with the body understands the body's frailty and, consequently, experiences the fear of health issues, death, hardship, as well as seniority. Many people nurture concerns of this type as a result of the experiences of previous lives. A psychological indulgence in concern creates a subconscious concern habit. When something distressing occurs, the subconscious anxiety routine asserts itself, amplifying the item of one's fears.

Yogananda additionally states that worry 'tosses a veil over your instinct,' so while it can be practical, way too much of worry is also dangerous. The bright side is that you don't have to 'technique' on your own from feeling fear. You could:

Quiet the heart and unwind the body.

Harness the power of your will.

Meditate on guts and also calmness.

Go on a 'stress quickly,' shaking off your continuous practice of fretting. Yogananda calls these thoughts, "poisonous medicines to the mind."

Just let be afraid emerge as well as observe it. Add-ons keep us ever before fearful. The more an individual's body-consciousness expands- to consist of such things as a feeling of properties, a worry for one's track record, a feeling of individual power or significance- the better the probability of feeling anxiety. If we can just observe this phenomenon as well as let it be it will typically start to decrease of its very own accord.

Yogananda also proves that if a concern occurs, there is still some fate that hasn't already been functioned out. His advice? "Each time you meditate, your fate decreases, for during that time your power is concentrated in the brain as well as burns up the old mind cells. After every deep reflection, you will certainly discover yourself becoming freer inside. Meditate deeply as well as you will certainly get rid of all anxieties and also gain the unshakeable awareness of soul liberty."

Love instead of fear.

The Take Away

Training the body to be superhuman, as well as the mind to conquer all anxiety is not inherently negative. This is, in truth, part of the pursuit of fortune-tellers looking for ascension, however how we do this, as well as who we give the secrets to our minds, is vital. The value of safeguarding our feelings - all of them - and our physical knowledge has never been even more vital.

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Making wireless communication more energy efficient

Omer Tanovic, a PhD candidate in the Department of Electrical Engineering and Computer Science, joined the Laboratory for Information and Decision Systems (LIDS) because he loves studying theory and turning research questions into solvable math problems. But Omer says that his engineering background — before coming to MIT he received undergraduate and master’s degrees in electrical engineering and computer science at the University of Sarajevo in Bosnia-Herzegovina — has taught him never to lose sight of the intended applications of his work, or the practical parameters for implementation.

“I love thinking about things on the abstract math level, but it’s also important to me that the work we are doing will help to solve real-world problems,” Omer says. “Instead of building circuits, I am creating algorithms that will help make better circuits.”

One real-world problem that captured Omer’s attention during his PhD is power efficiency in wireless operations. The success of wireless communications has led to massive infrastructure expansion in the United States and around the world. This has included many new cell towers and base stations. As these networks and the volume of information they handle grow, they consume an increasingly hefty amount of power, some of which goes to powering the system as it’s supposed to, but much of which is lost as heat due to energy inefficiency. This is a problem both for companies such as mobile network operators, which have to pay large utility bills to cover their operational costs, and for society at large, as the sector’s greenhouse gas emissions rise.

These concerns are what motivate Omer in his research. Most of the projects that he has worked on at MIT seek to design signal processing systems, optimized to different measures, that will increase power efficiency while ensuring that the output signal (what you hear when talking to someone on the phone, for instance) is true to the original input (what was said by the person on the other end of the call).

His latest project seeks to address the power efficiency problem by decreasing the peak-to-average power ratio (PAPR) of wireless communication signals. In the broadest sense, PAPR is an indirect indicator of how much power is required to send and receive a clear signal across a network. The lower this ratio is, the more energy-efficient the transmission. Namely, much of the power consumed in cellular networks is dedicated to power amplifiers, which collect low-power electronic input and convert it to a higher-power output, such as picking up a weak radio signal generated inside a cell phone and amplifying it so that, when emitted by an antenna it is strong enough to reach a cell tower. This ensures that the signal is robust enough to maintain adequate signal-to-noise ratio over the communication link. Power amplifiers are at their most efficient when operating near their saturation level, at maximum output power. However, because cellular network technology has evolved in a way that accommodates a huge volume and variety of information across the network — resulting in far less uniform signals than in the past — modern communication standards require signals with big peak-to-average power ratios. This means that a radio frequency transmitter must be designed such that the underlying power amplifier can handle peaks much higher than the average power being transmitted, and therefore, most of the time, the power amplifier is working inefficiently — far from its saturation level.

“Every cell tower has to have some kind of PAPR reduction algorithm in place in order to operate. But the algorithms they use are developed with little or no guaranties on improving system performance,” Omer says. “A common conception is that optimal algorithms, which would certainly improve system performance, are either too expensive to implement — in terms of power or computational capacity — or cannot be implemented at all.”

Omer, who is supervised by LIDS Professor Alexandre Megretski, designed an algorithm that can decrease the PAPR of a modern communication signal, which would allow the power amplifier to operate closer to its maximum efficiency, thus reducing the amount of energy lost in the process. To create this system he first considered it as an optimization problem, the conditions of which meant that any solution would not be implementable, as it would require infinite latency, meaning an infinite delay before transmitting the signal. However, Omer showed that the underlying optimal system, even though of infinite latency, has a desirable fading-memory property, and so he could create an approximation with finite latency — an acceptable lag time. From this, he developed a way to best approximate the optimal system. The approximation, which is implementable, allows tradeoffs between precision and latency, so that real-time realizations of the algorithm can improve power efficiency without adding too much transmission delay or too much distortion to the signal. Omer applied this system using standardized test signals for 4G communication and found that, on average, he could get around 50 percent reduction in the peak-to-average power ratio while satisfying standard measures of quality of digital communication signals.

Omer’s algorithm, along with improving power efficiency, is also computationally efficient. “This is important in order to ensure that the algorithm is not just theoretically implementable, but also practically implementable,” Omer says, once again stressing that abstract mathematical solutions are only valuable if they cohere to real-world parameters. Microchip real estate in communications is a limited commodity, so the algorithm cannot take up much space, and its mathematical operations have to be executed quickly, as latency is a critical factor in wireless communications. Omer believes that the algorithm could be adapted to solve other engineering problems with similar frameworks, including envelope tracking and model predictive control.

While he has been working on this project, Omer has made a home for himself at MIT. Two of his three sons were born here in Cambridge — in fact, the youngest was born on campus, in the stairwell of Omer and his wife’s graduate housing building. “The neighbors slept right through it,” Omer says with a laugh.

Omer quickly became an active member of the LIDS community when he arrived at MIT. Most notably, he was part of the LIDS student conference and student social committees, where, in addition to helping run the annual LIDS Student Conference, a signature lab event now in its 25th year, he also helped to organize monthly lunches, gatherings, and gaming competitions, including a semester-long challenge dubbed the OLIDSpics (an homage to the Olympic Games). He says that being on the committees was a great way to engage with and contribute to the LIDS community, a group for which he is grateful.

“At MIT, and especially at LIDS, you can learn something new from everyone you speak to. I’ve been in many places, and this is the only place where I’ve experienced a community like that,” Omer says.

As Omer’s time at LIDS draws to an end, he is still debating what to do next. On one hand, his love of solving real-world problems is drawing him toward industry. He spent four summers during his PhD interning at companies including the Mitsubishi Electric Research Lab. He enjoyed the fast pace of industry, being able to see his solutions implemented relatively quickly.

On the other hand, Omer is not sure he could ever leave academia for long; he loves research and is also truly passionate about teaching. Omer, who grew up in Bosnia-Herzegovina, began teaching in his first year of high school, at a math camp for younger children. He has been teaching in one form or another ever since.

At MIT, Omer has taught both undergraduate- and graduate-level courses, including as an instructor-G, an appointment only given to advanced students who have demonstrated teaching expertise. He has won two teaching awards, the MIT School of Engineering Graduate Student Extraordinary Teaching and Mentoring Award in 2018 and the MIT EECS Carlton E. Tucker Teaching Award in 2017.

The magnitude of Omer’s love for teaching is clear when he speaks about working with students: “That moment when you explain something to a student and you see them really understand the concept is priceless. No matter how much energy you have to spend to make that happen, it’s worth it,” Omer says.

In communications, power efficiency is key, but when it comes to research and teaching, there’s no limit to Omer’s energy.

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The Stress of a Natural Disaster Can Take a Toll on Babies in Utero

Pregnant women are often told to avoid stress. Easier said than done. Work, school, life—stress is inevitable. And now researchers are saying they can even document an ill effect on babies when mothers confront one of the most unavoidable stressors: natural disasters.

In 2009, researchers from the City University of New York received a grant from the National Institute of Mental Health to better understand the impacts of maternal stress and depression on fetal development and long-term psychological outcomes for infants. Most of the 600 women enrolled in the study were low-income and ethnic minorities who were being served by major hospitals in the New York City area—a population, the study notes, that is already at high risk of complications for both mother and baby. These women have less access to prenatal care and medical support, in part because they often don’t have very good health insurance.

The study expanded in 2012, the same year that Hurricane Sandy flooded cities and towns along the eastern U.S. coast. This presented the researchers with a rare opportunity: In a study of maternal health, the scientific community widely considers it unethical to randomly impose stressful conditions on women and then measure the effects. But when the storm hit, it essentially created an experimental group and a control group of its own: pregnant women already enrolled in the study who lived through the storm, and women who gave birth just before it hit.

[Read: Families are getting better at preparing for hurricanes]

“The storm was horrible. The power was out and people were trapped in the basement of buildings,” says Yoko Nomura, the study’s lead author. “Those horrible things are really stressful. A mother can handle it, but the fetus is like a captive audience.” How babies handle stress is a lot like how they take medicine, she explains: You can give an infant certain medications, but the dosage has to be much lower. For a fetus, receiving even a small amount of stress hormones can have outsize negative effects.

Six months after giving birth, mothers were asked to report the frequency of certain infant behaviors and reactions, like laughing or smiling and sadness or fear. In line with existing research on stress, the results showed that for women who had already shown symptoms of prenatal depression, the storm exacerbated the consequences for their babies. They showed higher rates of distress and lower rates of pleasure seeking than babies born before the storm. In other words, living through the storm amplified the impacts of existing prenatal depression. The effect was moderate but significant, and the researchers do not yet know how or whether there will be longer-term consequences. While the researchers found that the effect was observable across income groups, it will take further research to understand the nuances of how this plays out across class and race, as the study sample was too small to draw those conclusions.

While it’s generally understood that stressful events during pregnancy can trigger depression, that maternal depression can affect fetuses, and that natural disasters can trigger depression or anxiety, “people aren’t connecting the dots,” says Asim Shah, a professor and the executive vice chair of the psychiatry department at the Baylor College of Medicine. Shah wasn’t involved with the recent study, but he’s worked with survivors of Hurricanes Harvey and Katrina.

[Read: How school children will cope with Hurricane Harve]y

“The effects of a [natural] disaster are multifaceted,” he says. In the adults Shah worked with, common responses included insomnia and anxiety. Even two or three years after Katrina, some patients experienced post-traumatic stress, which could be triggered even by normal levels of rainfall. “We don't have the tools to address trauma from hurricanes and natural disasters,” Shah says.

As climate change increases the frequency of large-scale natural disasters, lower-income mothers and women of color are likely to suffer disproportionately. After Hurricane Harvey in 2017, low-income families were more likely than the affluent to live in damaged and dangerous housing; one expectant mother profiled by the Texas Observer was encouraged to induce birth early to treat her baby for mold exposure. Either way, she would eventually bring her child home to walls filled with mold and allergens, putting the baby’s health at risk. And a recent NPR report found that wealthy, white families who own homes in relatively safe neighborhoods were far more likely to receive federal aid from FEMA than lower-income families of color who rent homes in more environmentally vulnerable neighborhoods. As a result, existing inequalities are exacerbated, which could have profound consequences for public health specifically, and maternal health generally.

After any traumatic event, getting back to a sense of normalcy can be a key step toward reducing the psychological toll. “If your house is destroyed in a hurricane and you're able to make it and rebuild with insurance, your trauma would be negligible if you're back to functionality, as opposed to a person who lost everything and doesn't have the means to rebuild a house,” Shah says. “They will be suffering for months or years.” But Shah adds that identifying a problem is often the first and most important step. “People might think it’s normal to feel anxious and stressed in pregnancy,” he says. That might stop families from seeking treatment or medication for new mothers and their children, especially if the effects of the stress manifest years after a natural disaster struck. “We have to counsel [families], and with therapy and treatment we can make the outcomes better.”

from Health News And Updates https://www.theatlantic.com/family/archive/2019/03/how-natural-disasters-impact-pregnant-mothers/584173/?utm_source=feed

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The Stress of a Natural Disaster Can Take a Toll on Babies in Utero

Pregnant women are often told to avoid stress. Easier said than done. Work, school, life—stress is inevitable. And now researchers are saying they can even document an ill effect on babies when mothers confront one of the most unavoidable stressors: natural disasters.

In 2009, researchers from the City University of New York received a grant from the National Institute of Mental Health to better understand the impacts of maternal stress and depression on fetal development and long-term psychological outcomes for infants. Most of the 600 women enrolled in the study were low-income and ethnic minorities who were being served by major hospitals in the New York City area—a population, the study notes, that is already at high risk of complications for both mother and baby. These women have less access to prenatal care and medical support, in part because they often don’t have very good health insurance.

The study expanded in 2012, the same year that Hurricane Sandy flooded cities and towns along the eastern U.S. coast. This presented the researchers with a rare opportunity: In a study of maternal health, the scientific community widely considers it unethical to randomly impose stressful conditions on women and then measure the effects. But when the storm hit, it essentially created an experimental group and a control group of its own: pregnant women already enrolled in the study who lived through the storm, and women who gave birth just before it hit.

[Read: Families are getting better at preparing for hurricanes]

“The storm was horrible. The power was out and people were trapped in the basement of buildings,” says Yoko Nomura, the study’s lead author. “Those horrible things are really stressful. A mother can handle it, but the fetus is like a captive audience.” How babies handle stress is a lot like how they take medicine, she explains: You can give an infant certain medications, but the dosage has to be much lower. For a fetus, receiving even a small amount of stress hormones can have outsize negative effects.

Six months after giving birth, mothers were asked to report the frequency of certain infant behaviors and reactions, like laughing or smiling and sadness or fear. In line with existing research on stress, the results showed that for women who had already shown symptoms of prenatal depression, the storm exacerbated the consequences for their babies. They showed higher rates of distress and lower rates of pleasure seeking than babies born before the storm. In other words, living through the storm amplified the impacts of existing prenatal depression. The effect was moderate but significant, and the researchers do not yet know how or whether there will be longer-term consequences. While the researchers found that the effect was observable across income groups, it will take further research to understand the nuances of how this plays out across class and race, as the study sample was too small to draw those conclusions.

While it’s generally understood that stressful events during pregnancy can trigger depression, that maternal depression can affect fetuses, and that natural disasters can trigger depression or anxiety, “people aren’t connecting the dots,” says Asim Shah, a professor and the executive vice chair of the psychiatry department at the Baylor College of Medicine. Shah wasn’t involved with the recent study, but he’s worked with survivors of Hurricanes Harvey and Katrina.

[Read: How school children will cope with Hurricane Harve]y

“The effects of a [natural] disaster are multifaceted,” he says. In the adults Shah worked with, common responses included insomnia and anxiety. Even two or three years after Katrina, some patients experienced post-traumatic stress, which could be triggered even by normal levels of rainfall. “We don't have the tools to address trauma from hurricanes and natural disasters,” Shah says.

As climate change increases the frequency of large-scale natural disasters, lower-income mothers and women of color are likely to suffer disproportionately. After Hurricane Harvey in 2017, low-income families were more likely than the affluent to live in damaged and dangerous housing; one expectant mother profiled by the Texas Observer was encouraged to induce birth early to treat her baby for mold exposure. Either way, she would eventually bring her child home to walls filled with mold and allergens, putting the baby’s health at risk. And a recent NPR report found that wealthy, white families who own homes in relatively safe neighborhoods were far more likely to receive federal aid from FEMA than lower-income families of color who rent homes in more environmentally vulnerable neighborhoods. As a result, existing inequalities are exacerbated, which could have profound consequences for public health specifically, and maternal health generally.

After any traumatic event, getting back to a sense of normalcy can be a key step toward reducing the psychological toll. “If your house is destroyed in a hurricane and you're able to make it and rebuild with insurance, your trauma would be negligible if you're back to functionality, as opposed to a person who lost everything and doesn't have the means to rebuild a house,” Shah says. “They will be suffering for months or years.” But Shah adds that identifying a problem is often the first and most important step. “People might think it’s normal to feel anxious and stressed in pregnancy,” he says. That might stop families from seeking treatment or medication for new mothers and their children, especially if the effects of the stress manifest years after a natural disaster struck. “We have to counsel [families], and with therapy and treatment we can make the outcomes better.”

Article source here:The Atlantic

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Put basically, it’s really just a suicide battle. Hoaxes in this way are made by men and women with a schedule. momo challenge stories Perhaps most maddeningly, a number of those stories show the story is a hoax as one side or one opinion.

It enables individuals to intimidate the others. Show a kid that perhaps not everybody is equally fine in Earth, plus a few people are intentionally me an to just receive a response from many others (for example, trolls). Their brains start to reinforce the notion which they have to fulfil a expectancy if simply to keep together with the dictates of this brotherhood that is mortal.

Alleged Momo Scenarios are reported by Mexico, America Germany and France.

History instructors round the country have been wanting to sound the alert in their schools. Restoration work continues over the chapel.

It supplies confidential and free of charge service 2-4 hours per day, 7 days per week for men and women in distress or crisis. Both expired in just two days of another. Living is awful, it is perhaps not likely to find superior.

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You truly come to feel more comfortable with, if you’re disturbed, speak with your parents friends or anybody. Kids and the teens who perished as a effect of Blue Whale have been considered to have taken their own lives. It is necessary to not forget that youngsters’ brains aren’t as developed as ours, though those stories could sound bizarre to adults.

Children are more prepared to chat about what exactly’s happening with kiddies that are diverse compared to themselves pose questions involving faculty friends and developments. They are frustrated with feeling tired by what’s being placed in front of his kids, or caught off guard, she explained. Always consider kids and your parents, Just before you take care of so.

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It is a struggle or perhaps a phenomenon that is currently spreading online through virtually any medium. Naturally, you would like to be in a position to accomplish your young ones but you are going to continue to be able to call them. The kid fundamentally wishes to go back at the purchase cost of every thing else towards the process.

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It is critical to not forget that mo mo is a sculpture, though this picture appears quite realistic. As mo-mo was first born the creature referred to.

Predicated on the kid’s age, parents should also communicate lots of the risks involved with obtaining societal media or websites, games internet web sites online. But police believe the character is truly beingused by hackers to harvest information. The strategy could include hacking on the mobile number.

At the moment of composing this quick article, you can find 3 amounts on the net where mo mo communicates. The URL into the sam e is scattered across WhatsApp. It’s evident that if YouTube simplifies its children’ information difficulty, the job of cleanup up concerning material on your website will be difficult.

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These pictures are older, however the very simple actuality the Challenge used to be a one has each possibility of kick start the thing. You are able to browse the group’s seven tips here. Model habits that are accountable online.

Approaching a psychologist could be of use. Odds are you’ve possibly seen the challenge. The mo-mo obstacle is only one case of games throughout media using a bad effect on also their social interactions and students.

The duty finishes together with the last struggle, to put it differently, committing suicide. In reality, the analysis demonstrates that there’s been an boost in hate crimes and anti-transgender rhetoric. In different nations there are questions regarding the challenge.

A couple suicide cases around the world are attached into the challenge but there’s no evidence to affirm the deaths had been as being a effect of the process. This is simply not the first time the world wide web has been circulated by rumors of a suicide battle. This is the latest around the warnings which were issued and also tips on how to chat about this.

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They ‘ve found a few anti viral elements of both methylation and proclaiming to locate gaps. Though it will not look like a distended commonplace. Treatment Several techniques are available to deal with kids and adults who stutter.

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However, it’s a fad that’s spread throughout the web in a number of shapes that are unique, having an actual narrative that is just about as peculiar as the troubling stories which can be told about that. An individual then is advised to execute a collection excessive and hazardous activities which might end up at suicides and are allegedly violent. It is possible to have a look at the hottest changes straight away.

YouTube too stressed that the Momo image isn’t permitted on YouTube Kids, and it’s putting defenses set up to be certain its exception together with that platform. Hayashi isn’t the inventor of this challenge. It is possible by going to the hyper link beneath to get out more.

Parents round the united kingdom have shared articles about that which is named an internet game which is played by networking platforms which include whats app the mo-mo Challenge face-book and YouTube. Here is a description for the Hazards of this Momo Problem. Nearly after the Blue Whale Challenge allegedly caused a wide selection of suicides amongst teenagers a new game named kids are reportedly encouraging todo dangerous struggles.

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Quite simply, it’s really just a suicide struggle. It she explained. Isaiah’s narrative isn’t unique.

The weapon discussion in the us is heated as it has ever been, and also people all over the united states are currently searching for a way to address the violence. Individuals are being left mindful. LGBT folks are somewhat more inclined to be targets of hate crimes than every other minority group in the U.S..

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There is not the relative outgrew stuttering to get a kid. Individuals could relapse subsequent remedy or during. Like a consequence, the threat of suicide may possibly have been substantially greater.

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No deaths are noted in the usa from this struggle. The Blue Whale sport obstacle is an internet game which is promised to exist in several nations. It has been associated with several deaths in Colombia, Argentina and India.

It gives free of charge and confidential service 24 hours every day, 7 days each week to get both women and men in distress or crisis. Both died in just two days of another. Last calendar year the app was notably well known in countries but it looks like a problem in states far too.

Let them understand they have been there in case the kiddies have some thing to speak about and the thing that a parent could do is to be there to their children. Obviously say it’s basic for children to have hurt with so. Being a parent it’s common to truly feel worried about matters that you see online that could possibly be bad for your little one.

Four decades ago it launched a app specially for boys’ and ladies’ content. There exists a good deal of fantastic items on YouTube also it may be a incredible stage… But mother and father need to get included with 1 way or another. We talk about the similar views.

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Japanese exceptional effects corporation website link manufacturing facility produced it. It isn’t yet clear about just how popular that the Momo Challenge is to consider it like a hazard that is substantial. According pros Momo challenge is simply a hoax that’s geared toward attacking information to.

He goes on to express there are. The mother or father Zone, which was keeping an watch on things mo-mo, insists that there isn’t any evidence which persons are engaging in the mo-mo problem. As there is not Even the mo-mo obstacle is not easy to describe.

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However, now we do not will need to follow along with along up history. Do not enable the title fool you, the question will not have a thing to do with foodstuff. Along with currently being told to not inform members in their relatives Kiddies are invited to economize the character to get a contact and are requested to transport out issues.

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A college student from just the same district was arrested in relation to the complaint. From time to time, its impacts are amplified by warning of the risks of some thing which you have not totally looked into children beyond the reality. The most fundamental thing of information I can offer will be always to speak with your kids let them know they don’t have to deal with any concerns.

This statement proves the criminal himself was jagged man. The 2 defendants are also called to be attempted with all the exact same indictment in the complete murder test later this month. Authorities tweeted an informational handout, warning that the match could make a likelihood for individuals to take or steal confidential info and also generate emotional and physical illnesses.

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There is frightening kiddies A face the start. It is not challenging to perform but it is a superior concern to choose the opportunity to set up to assist you make certain that your child has a secure and age-appropriate on-line experience. The kid basically wishes to come back to the challenge at the purchase price of anything.

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But it’s really a trend that’s propagate throughout the net in a lot of types, using a genuine narrative that’s only about as odd since the upsetting bogus stories that are told about that. It’s critical you learn one’s apparatus and accounts preferences to produce sure the extreme security of your youngster. ” keep an eye on the kids’ online and societal media activity to be certain they’re maybe perhaps not engaging with this challenge.

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It might or might not be true but there ought to be always a possible ways ahead from a way or this maybe not to enterprise inside this game and this is wholly ineffectual. Providentially, the response is,” No, as there exists a catch. Gaining grip on social networking, the struggle motivates teens to vanish as many as two days and awards points to each social networking mention that they receive all through that period.

As stated by psychologist Casey Holtz, it’s most reliable to receive an open dialogue about issues like dangerous games or online interests. Since it can not be obtained it isn’t a challenge. The battle assumes a game’s shape.

This malware to steal data and to access the remainder of one’s home network at the place where they can access details is utilized by hackers. Google-analytics is not going to receive exclusive information like website or your title. It’s been reported that the game is in reality a front for a fraud by getting players to get hold of the cell number where fraudsters contact private information.

” face book parents will be those which are spreading this such as wildfire,” explained Paul Davis, a social networking skilled that focuses primarily on online safety. The URL to the exact sam e has been dispersed within WhatsApp. It’s your hard-earned money it’s your best to spot check should you desire to.

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Murphy stated this mo-mo problem is substantially like different digitally-spread problems that strive to teach children to damage on their own as well as the Tide Pod Challenge. To the contrary, it really is out of the game depending upon the Momo Challenge called Momo.Exe. Here is all you have to learn about the mo-mo suicide challenge.

To have the ability to generally meet Momo you will be supplied a succession of activities to finish. Even the father or mother Zone, that has been keeping an watch on things mo-mo, insists there is signs that persons are engaging at the mo-mo problem. Since there’s maybe not really a terrific deal of proof it is the mo mo Challenge is not easy to clarify.

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Someone may just guess they begin to eradicate sense of their actual fact. ” Do something amazing a minumum of one time on your life, it’s so fantastic to expire younger. And soon you discover a person that will aid you, in the event notify others.

It permits people to intimidate the others. Explain to a young child that maybe not everybody is fine from Earth, along with a couple persons are purposely mean to merely obtain a reaction from others (for example, trolls). Specially, individuals that are young believe they ‘re the absolute men and women in the world and don’t demand advice.

Slenderman commenced as being a Photoshop challenge to learn who be in a position to win the world and can make the most of the picture. Hyperlink Factory produced the character from Japan. The artwork is also currently called Mother Bird.

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Even the phenomenon draws attention into the fact that children are in danger on the internet. The officers can also be thought to be searching for an 18-year-old who had received in contact. It’s quite tricky to feel that someone is involved to such an extent he is prepared to present his entire life to your match.

Any evidence in the shape of screenshots or video clips of exhortation and interaction to self-harm is not possible to detect. After a terrifying on-line meme starts dispersing enterprising persons and perhaps even overall companies begin to get the most out of it as a way to earn dollars. Numerous contact isn’t made by the movies and there are a couple fakes.

In case the adolescents and this instructions don’t stick together, the accounts threatens them with a discharge of exposure or confidential advice. Using a little work, you are even allowed to eradicate the internet search bar. If a kid would be too young to know the implications of committing somebody else online their advice it’s still true that you ought to get started talking regarding privacy to them.

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The drive to cope with all the matter is a good one. Accounts were considered as false or exaggerated. And I believe that that’s a reasonably evident issue here.

This statement proves the offender himself has been individual. This is simply not the time rumors of the suicide battle have circulated the internet. It’s not possible to learn while the narrative was correlated with one suicide, the way valid some of these reports are, it’s perhaps not in any respect clear if that’s true or if the reports are just the final outcome of fear and panic.

Numerous alleged Mo Mo Instances are reported by France, America Germany and Mexico.

Moreover, there are services which make an effort to assist victims of cyber bullying. Distinct states’ police departments have issued related advisories.

Its rates among kids are increasing within the last number of decades. Both perished in just two days of one another. Today it looks like a problem in various nations although the program was known in countries calendar year.

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These signals ought to be observed by the father or mother dependent around the safety provider. These household things are unsafe. ” keep track of the kids’ internet and societal media actions to guarantee they truly are maybe not engaging together with this challenge.

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If you’re bothered, talk with anybody close friends or your buddies you come to feel more comfortable with. LOCKWOOD A 12-year-old Lockwood child could be an internet bullying challenge’s newest aim. It is essential to not forget about that kids’ brains aren’t as developed as ours, though those stories could sound bizarre to adults.

It really is unclear just how much time it will survive although this YouTube block is momentary. There exists a lot of excellent stuff on YouTube also it may be an amazing platform… But mother and father need to get included with 1 way or the other. Now, this means viral media stunts.

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They are then supplied a get to of risky dares to finish. Users prove by sending videos directly and proofpictures to the whale, that is the individual instructing them throughout the total problem they’ve completed the struggle. To date, it has noted that almost 150 people were killed by way of this specific game.

As stated by psychologist Casey Holtz, it really is most effective to receive an open dialogue about issues like dangerous games or even online pursuits. Because it cannot be obtained it isn’t a challenge. This challenge will not exist.

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Another concern is in case the condom is ingested, it might lead to a congestion that may bring about emergency medical procedures. It’s not understood humans turn into contaminated with the bacteria but there’s isn’t any signs of human to human anatomy. Low levels will demonstrate that that the man is currently currently undergoing the disorder Along using the aforementioned tests, there’s a poll named Epworth Sleepiness Scale.

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10 Ways To Avoid Losing Money In Forex

The global forex market boasts over $4 trillion in average daily trading volume, making it the largest financial market in the world. Forex's popularity entices traders of all levels, from greenhorns just learning about the financial markets to well-seasoned professionals. Because it is so easy to trade forex - with round-the-clock sessions, access to significant leverage and relatively low costs - it is also very easy to lose money trading forex. This article will take a look at 10 ways that traders can avoid losing money in the competitive forex market. (There are no specifically forex focused programs, but there are still some advanced education alternatives for forex traders. Check out 5 Forex Designations.)

1. Do Your Homework – Learn Before You Burn

Just because forex is easy to get into doesn't mean that due diligence can be avoided. Learning about forex is integral to a trader's success in the forex markets. While the majority of learning comes from live trading and experience, a trader should learn everything possible about the forex markets, including the geopolitical and economic factors that affect a trader's preferred currencies. Homework is an ongoing effort as traders need to be prepared to adapt to changing market conditions, regulations and world events. Part of this research process involves developing a trading plan. (For more, check out 10 Steps To Building A Winning Trading Plan.)

 2. Take the Time to Find a Reputable Broker

The forex industry has much less oversight than other markets, so it is possible to end up doing business with a less-than-reputable forex broker. Due to concerns about the safety of deposits and the overall integrity of a broker, forex traders should only open an account with a firm that is a member of the National Futures Association (NFA) and that is registered with the U.S. Commodity Futures Trading Commission (CFTC) as a futures commission merchant. Each country outside of the United States has its own regulatory body with which legitimate forex brokers should be registered.

 Traders should also research each broker's account offerings, including leverage amounts, commissions and spreads, initial deposits, and account funding and withdrawal policies. A helpful customer service representative should have all this information and be able to answer any questions regarding the firm's services and policies. (Discover the best ways to find a broker who will help you succeed in the forex market. Refer to 5 Tips For Selecting A Forex Broker.)

 3. Use a Practice Account

Nearly all trading platforms come with a practice account, sometimes called a simulated account or demo account. These accounts allow traders to place hypothetical trades without a funded account. Perhaps the most important benefit of a practice account is that it allows a trader to become adept at order entry techniques.

 Few things are as damaging to a trading account (and a trader's confidence) as pushing the wrong button when opening or exiting a position. It is not uncommon, for example, for a new trader to accidentally add to a losing position instead of closing the trade. Multiple errors in order entry can lead to large, unprotected losing trades. Aside from the devastating financial implications, this situation is incredibly stressful. Practice makes perfect: experiment with order entries before placing real money on the line.

 4. Keep Charts Clean

Once a forex trader has opened an account, it may be tempting to take advantage of all the technical analysis tools offered by the trading platform. While many of these indicators are well-suited to the forex markets, it is important to remember to keep analysis techniques to a minimum in order for them to be effective. Using the same types of indicators – such as two volatility indicators or two oscillators, for example – can become redundant and can even give opposing signals. This should be avoided.

 Any analysis technique that is not regularly used to enhance trading performance should be removed from the chart. In addition to the tools that are applied to the chart, the overall look of the workspace should be considered. The chosen colors, fonts and types of price bars (line, candle bar, range bar, etc) should create an easy-to-read and interpret chart, allowing the trader to more effectively respond to changing market conditions.

 5. Protect Your Trading Account

While there is much focus on making money in Buy Forex Online trading, it is important to learn how to avoid losing money. Proper money management techniques are an integral part of successful trading. Many veteran traders would agree that one can enter a position at any price and still make money – it's how one gets out of the trade that matters.

 Part of this is knowing when to accept your losses and move on. Always using a protective stop loss is an effective way to make sure that losses remain reasonable. Traders can also consider using a maximum daily loss amount beyond which all positions would be closed and no new trades initiated until the next trading session. While traders should have plans to limit losses, it is equally essential to protect profits. Money management techniques, such as utilizing trailing stops, can help preserve winnings while still giving a trade room to grow.

 6. Start Small When Going Live

Once a trader has done his or her homework, spent time with a practice account and has a trading plan in place, it may be time to go live – that is, start trading with real money at stake. No amount of practice trading can exactly simulate real trading, and as such it is vital to start small when going live.

 Factors like emotions and slippage cannot be fully understood and accounted for until trading live. Additionally, a trading plan that performed like champ in backtesting results or practice trading could, in reality, fail miserably when applied to a live market. By starting small, a trader can evaluate his or her trading plan and emotions, and gain more practice in executing precise order entries – without risking the entire trading account in the process.

 7. Use Reasonable Leverage

Forex trading is unique in the amount of leverage that is afforded to its participants. One of the reasons forex is so attractive is that traders have the opportunity to make potentially large profits with a very small investment – sometimes as little as $50. Properly used, leverage does provide potential for growth; however, leverage can just as easily amplify losses. A trader can control the amount of leverage used by basing position size on the account balance. For example, if a trader has $10,000 in a forex account, a $100,000 position (one standard lot) would utilize 10:1 leverage. While the trader could open a much larger position if he or she were to maximize leverage, a smaller position will limit risk. (For additional reading, see Adding Leverage To Your Forex Trading.)

 8. Keep Good Records

A trading journal is an effective way to learn from both losses and successes in forex trading. Keeping a record of trading activity containing dates, instruments, profits, losses, and, perhaps most importantly, the trader's own performance and emotions can be incredibly beneficial to growing as a successful trader. When periodically reviewed, a trading journal provides important feedback that makes learning possible. Einstein once said that "insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." Without a trading journal and good record keeping, traders are likely to continue making the same mistakes, minimizing their chances of become profitable and successful traders.

 9. Understand Tax Implications and Treatment

It is important to understand the tax implications and treatment of forex trading activity in order to be prepared at tax time. Consulting with a qualified accountant or tax specialist can help avoid any surprises at tax time, and can help individuals take advantage of various tax laws, such as the marked-to-market accounting. Since tax laws change regularly, it is prudent to develop a relationship with a trusted and reliable professional that can guide and manage all tax-related matters.

 10. Treat Trading As a Business

It is essential to treat forex trading as a business, and to remember that individual wins and losses don't matter in the short run; it is how the trading business performs over time that is important. As such, traders should try to avoid becoming overly emotional with either wins or losses, and treat each as just another day at the office. As with any business, forex trading incurs expenses, losses, taxes, risk and uncertainty. Also, just as small businesses rarely become successful overnight, neither do most forex traders. Planning, setting realistic goals, staying organized and learning from both successes and failures will help ensure a long, successful career as a forex trader.

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Welcome to the Maze - the battle for my future

WELL just when you thought this blog was straight up dead, banana slamma to your face and it’s back. Over the last 90 days i’ve had honestly not a ton of things I wanted to write about or share super publicly. My big brother Richard (not actual brother, ugh, okay so tired of explaining - let’s just call him an uncle) pointed out to me that I really only seem to write about positive experiences. I thought about this and realized, yeah I completely avoid writing about some of the harder things or stuff I struggle with, so if you are reading this blog there have been struggles throughout this whole story, I just want to put that disclaimer up so you aren’t thinking holy shit this guy is just non-stop having great times (a common symptom of social media). 

Back to the story. I thought the preparation for the VISA was going to be an exciting action montage, a short burst of activity and then back to focusing on other important things like my music. But it turned out to be more of an emotional roller coaster. As a result, I felt zero motivation to write, and so the dust started to collect on this blog. 

*dusts blog off with a pipe of the finest halfling’s leaf

Where I last left off my readers, I was on the plane to Ireland to jump through my first VISA hoop of successfully resetting my VISA to being a ‘tourist’ - entitling me 90 more days in Berlin to apply for a longer stay VISA. I stayed with my cousin Brian and his roommate Derek for the following week where I worked on some marketing for my track ‘i c e c r e a m’ which I just released. Other than that, I bided my time (over some shenanigans with my cousin, no doubt), spent very little money, and waited for my return flight to head home.

PROLOGUE

Upon landing back in Berlin, I nervously approached the customs booth. The official opened my passport, looked for a fraction of a second, and then stamped the entry into my passport.

And in that very moment it was as if the sound of the stamp reverberated in my mind... fading away to the gentle - but sustained - clicking of a clock. I now have 90 days to figure how I can stay longer. It was the beginning of a gradual stress that would only continue to grow eventually becoming a monstrous load as time accelerated closer to the 90th day.

The following weeks were covered in the deep Berlin darkness that accompanies winter here, even longer periods of darkness than Edmonton or Calgary back in Canada (albeit by a few minutes). The days are filled with a grey hue, only to be amplified by many grey buildings. In those days filled with night, I researched over and over again what was required for the artist/freelancer VISA. I met with multiple friends who had successfully obtained an artist or freelance VISA. I heard stories that encouraged my efforts and I heard stories that took my hope away. In the worst period of this time, I went from absolute depression and hopelessness of staying here to feeling like it was all going to work, and then back again - multiple times a day. I got sick for the first time in Berlin as a result, as my body tried to keep pace with the constant surges of neuro-chemicals associated with the emotional swings. I’m sure you are wondering, why such swings? In part it was because the entire VISA application and requirements were so poorly articulated (especially around health insurance) that I feel they intended you to have to go and meet others with the VISA to understand what to do. But it wasn’t just that. I was having my own form of crisis of what I was doing with my life. And it wasn’t happening at the best of times.

I share this now because I want people to understand the other side of chasing a dream. That it is not just all high fives and sunshine. Of course most people understand this, that there will be hard times in any adventure. But I am talking about really hard times, times that make you question the journey entirely. I left a career in chemical engineering where I had a very financially stable life. I was relatively wealthy with money, but poor in time. And so I made the decision to leave that life, for something completely different. With no expectations of how it would turn out, I pushed my boat from the shore and showed up in Berlin one snowy day in January. Fast forwarding to the future, I began to wonder about if I had expectations about me going home. An internal conflict set out inside of me - like a house of parliament debating the merits of a contentious bill - two sides taking turns to shout their opinions at the other side. So with this internal power struggle waging war in my mind and my heart, I continued to research more and more, and work on music as well. And time flew by. But as the day of the appointment approached, I stopped working on the VISA completely. I understand it now looking back - it was a coping mechanism because the whole process sometimes elicited just such painful struggles deep down that it was much easier to procrastinate. Eventually I got around to working on it with about 2 weeks remaining. And once I began to work on the VISA again, I had some troubling realizations. BUT before we get into those, let me break down for the less VISA-savvy people out there what the timeline looked like for the VISA itself.

Break down of the VISA timeline:

I booked my appointment in early January for the next available appointment, which was March 22nd (2.5 months later). The appointment is ALL in German, so I required someone FLUENT in German because my German would not be able to stand up to a native German speakers speed in a formal government appointment.

I was currently staying as a tourist, meaning I do not have a VISA, and as such was only allowed to stay in Germany (and the EU) for 90 days. On April 10th, if I did not have a valid VISA I would have to leave the EU for at least 6 months before being able to return

What happens if I did not get the VISA? Well, the VISA agent would tell me there are deficiencies with my application and write me a specific letter detailing all of the deficiencies which would have to be remedied before I could get my VISA

Since no appointments would be available before April 10th, i’d have a few options.

Refresh the VISA website page and look for a cancellation to appear (I know one person who this worked for, that’s it). Low chance of success.

Show up at the office every morning and hope to get in to see an agent during an empty slot (like a lottery).

The problem with this option is that I required someone who could speak fluent German for the appointment. Since I wouldn’t be able to predict when I would get an appointment, it would be incredibly hard to get someone who could come with me very early in the morning and wait for hours just on the hope of getting an appointment.

Now that we got that out of the way, what was the troubling realization? Upon my research I realized health insurance was the key for the VISA, and with German health insurance for freelancers costing 250 euros/month, I realized I had a second problem - I needed to not only get the VISA, but also get the VISA affordable health insurance (essentially travel insurance which is technically not allowed by the VISA office). If there were problems in the first appointment, it would be a coin toss if I could fix the issues and get another appointment before i’d have to leave. If I failed, I would have to go back to Canada - an option which I had not yet entertained at all in my mind on what I would do if that were to happen. I couldn’t just slam dunk the ball on the first try, I had to shatter the backboard on my first attempt.

Welcome to the Maze - the battle for my future

So as I began to logically break down the problem of the VISA, I realized the main issue was the health insurance - everything else was not really hard to solve. But for some reason I found the most inconsistencies between successful applications on the health insurance. I just couldn’t get my head around it, I knew some people with very cheap health insurance, and others with more expensive health insurance. The discrepancy between them I won’t publicly state, but it was the difference between me being able to live here and not being able to. After hours spent googling, reading, talking and meeting with people I felt no closer to the answer, and I knew I couldn’t just buy the most expensive health insurance as it would put an intense financial pressure on my ability to stay here. So did I just gamble with a cheaper travel insurance and hope for the best in the appointment? Well, if you know me - I could not logically handle the ‘throw caution to the wind on the most important appointment of your life’ approach. I had to figure this out, there HAD to be a clear logical resolution behind why some people got through with cheaper health insurance and others did not. The question was simple:

How can two people with near identical applications get their applications approved with such drastically different health insurances?

And then I had a thought while staring at the ceiling of our apartment exhausted by my own thoughts. As my eyes darted furtively around the ceiling as my memory kicked into overdrive, I exhaled, this is going to be a long shot.

Chapter 1: The mysterious insurance man and the secrets of the universe

When I was working on my first VISA application back in Canada in 2015, I also had a bunch of questions about the health insurance requirements (note: there is a theme here with the German government being incredibly vague about health insurance requirements for foreigners). After doing a lot of research, I somehow stumbled across the email address for a health insurance agent located in Berlin. Since there was no help from my own consulate, I decided to ask him a bunch of my questions. I framed my questions to get the maximum amount of information while coming off that I may buy their insurance products (which I probably wouldn’t). I waited a day after sending my email and surprisingly he got back to me right away. Upon reading the email, I felt like for the first time someone had given me a straight answer on the ambiguous subject. But something struck me as odd - this guy didn’t seem to care if I bought his insurance products or not, as he continued to divulge information on cheaper alternatives and more resources. He was so tremendously helpful that my brain filed the experience away as something to remember.

I brought up the email. August 8th, 2015. Well it has been a wee bit of time since we last spoke...So I breathed in, and wrote the best email I could while acknowledging it had been close to 2 years since our last communication. The email I wrote was part therapeutic as I very concisely wrote my frustrations with the German VISA office’s inability to be CLEAR about health insurance requirements for an artist VISA. Lo and behold, he responded - and not just responded - he agreed with me. I smiled, and as my eyes scanned through the email, they stumbled across something which made my eyes open wide. Like mysteries of the universe being whispered in your ear by some fifth dimensional being, I read some secret truths of the German VISA office that began to explain the inconsistencies. Apparently the VISA office used to take travel insurance as an acceptable means of health insurance for artists, but a new supervisor had taken over the office last May and demanded all artist’s required German public health insurance (which made the artist VISA process near impossible). So this must be why some people got by with travel insurance I thought to myself. It was just a matter of timing. The best part? This supervisor had since realized the error in their ways, and had quietly rescinded this requirement. But something still didn’t make sense. I know people who had their health insurance rejected in the period where this was supposed to be all remedied. He then told me the ultimate tip - The key for the VISA office (if you applied with travel insurance as an artist) was that you had to convince them you planned to join the KSK - a social insurance program for artists in Germany. This was because the KSK is public German health insurance, where you make social contributions as you normally would. The reason that this is accepted as a temporary means is because the KSK is notoriously hard to join now as an artist (as they discount your otherwise impossibly expensive health insurance significantly). It was only a few lines of text, but it gave me a new rush of hope.

Chapter 2: The real action montage

The appointment was on a Tuesday morning, and in the week leading up to it I started getting crazy migraines. I was struck down for the count and was out of service completely for three days. The constant stress was starting to finally get to me. Not just because of the VISA appointment, also in part to having a premier show with a new hip hop music collective the Saturday before the appointment. I won’t get into all of that though mainly because this post is already giant and I can only write so much haha *lazy.

The following days I spent preparing for the appointment. I made sure to do everything to maximum German effect. My binder? Made in Germany. All of my papers? Translated to German. You want 3 letters of potential work? How about 5. As it started to come together, it felt similar to putting together an art project. The final product was a thick binder of paper, clearly accessible labels, and in the order of which the requirements appeared on the VISA checklist form (which is two pages).

Chapter 3: Journey to the VISA office

We woke up at 4:30 a.m. Dina was coming with me to the appointment as my translator and support. The appointment was at 7:00 a.m. and we quickly were prepared to set out. It was going to take us nearly an hour to get there as it was on the outskirts of Berlin.

Upon getting to the nearest train station, I began to wonder why the hell a government office would be right beside what seemed to be a bunch of steam boilers. So...is the VISA office inside of a factory?

We walked along the path following other people holding some scrunched up papers. If that is their application, my 100% authentic binder will crush with German precision.

On the way we walked along this giant industrial facility, a strange head nod to my past life in Canada.

We arrived 30 minutes early, because the appointment clearly states any lateness will not be tolerated, and is grounds to have your appointment immediately cancelled. A line was starting to form at the door of the VISA office. I even saw some people filling out paper work frantically beforehand, whom I definitely felt bad for.

Standing in the line I couldn’t help but laugh. There was a very strange plant in a window outside of the door that had an uncanny resemblance of someone giving you the middle finger. As if it was giving you the warm-up for your appointment.

Chapter 4: Final boss battle - the VISA appointment

None of the following could be photographed as all phones have to be off inside the office so I used memes instead.

I can still meme though. If you don’t get it, go see the new Dr. Strange (homework)

The door opened and Dina and I spilled into the entrance alongside about 50 other people. People rushed up the stairs and we followed. At the top we were confronted with three long hallways, each with meeting room signs. All the people went down one hallway where we followed. I sat down in the meeting room but Dina wasn’t sure and asked the security guard if we were in the right place. As she asked, I saw a poster on the wall dictating this was only for a list of about 23 Asian countries. Dina rushed back and told me we were in the wrong room and we rushed off to the right place where Canada was on the poster of countries accepted here. It was stressful. But in the moments that she rushed between security guards (where I would have surely missed my appointment by waiting in the wrong room) I realized how insanely lucky I was to have Dina. Over the past three months she is pretty much the only reason I was able to stay in Berlin. There was way too much pressure (and too many unknowns) that I would have likely buckled under the stress and have returned home. But Dina became a new reason for me to stick it out, and because of that I realized there is so much I still have left to do here. And in the most critical hour, she was there - at times carrying my burden more than me, ensuring that the everything was right. Finally after many re-directs we got to the right place.

As we sat down we stared at a white screen which was going to show our reservation number. In this giant waiting room, there were about three of us. The other 30 people were lining up for one office which must be where they triage the people trying to get an appointment desperately without a reservation. 6:59….7:00 a.m.

Ding ding ding, three reservation numbers appear. None of them are mine. 7:03 a.m., two more appointments appear. Again, not mine, and at this point we start to get nervous. At around 7:08 a.m. Dina ask the security guy if this was normal, he said it happens SOMETIMES - but since the reservation says if you are late at all you can be denied, we were worried. FINALLY my appointment showed up. Here we go.

If you have seen the Matrix (movie), I liken this scene to when Neo meets the Architect (or Colonel Sanders) in the giant white room filled with televisions. We sit down. The room is quiet, as if I can hear the dust settling. I notice a radio in the corner playing some German pop song. The whole interior feels strangely like a kindergarten classroom, as if an attempt to make you feel at ease. A German lady in her 50s with white hair sits in front of us, looking at me like Why are you here? I tell her in German I am there for a freelance artist VISA application. She nods and asks me for the first paper she needs. Dina was incredibly nervous at this point, trying to be ready to intercept any immediate German requests to me and then back to the German appointment lady. Things go well. She asks me for paper A, I give her paper A. It goes on for a few minutes, and then she asks for my letters of potential work offers. I give them to her, with one being in English. Most of the VISA applications I saw had a lot of their stuff in English so I thought this was ok. She shakes her head, “Kein English”. She spoke zero English, which made me incredibly happy that I thought to translate almost everything into German, and also incredibly thankful that Dina spent an evening doing it. She ended up discarding that paper and not even taking it. First challenge complete.

And then came the defining moment. The health insurance. Sometimes in life a small moment can carry such heavy significance that most people seem to overlook it. But not me. I take these moments and stretch them out in my mind. This moment I lived in for what felt like hours. As we handed the health insurance she glanced up and down the paper and then looked up, slightly agitated. “This is...this is….travel insurance???” With a sense of disbelief on her face, as if I just brought her an entire salmon smothered in whip cream and slapped her with it. Dina’s eyes widened and she looked at me. The older woman stared into my eyes, almost challenging. I stared back, my German heritage and birthright bubbling up through my conscious. Bring it on.

In that moment I was transported to an old western setting, a standoff. As we took our 10 paces away from each other and slowly turned around, Dina (dressed in an old western style dress) screams out to stop the fighting. It’s hopeless. This is our fate, our dance of death - and only one cowboy gets out of this one alive.

As I turned around drawing my pistol, so did the VISA agent, simultaneously. But I was quicker. I had trained for this exact moment, without knowing it would come. Those two lines of text in the email from the health insurance agent were my golden bullets. And just as our fingers pressed the triggers, I whispered, “I’m planning to join the KSK.”

BANG.

I’m back at the VISA appointment, our duel had existed in the moment between our intense stares. My gaze remained fixated on hers as finally her eyes looked back down at the travel insurance. And as if I just remembered the elvish word for ‘friend’, a door opened out of seemingly nowhere.

“Ok, I need your passport”.

I put the pistol back in it’s holster and say some very ironic quote that only B movies would execute well. She motioned for us to go wait in the waiting room outside with no further directions. We went outside, and as we waited those long 20 minutes I bit my tongue. I couldn’t talk about the duel that just happened, as maybe I misunderstood it. Deep down though, I knew what just had happened - but I couldn’t fathom admitting it until I knew for sure. Dina, obviously stressed by the exchange started talking to me in whispers about what fantastic events were happening in Berlin as their only TV displayed easter egg painting events for toddlers, free pie at the nearby senior’s home on Saturday, etc... Finally my appointment showed up again.

We sat down, and she handed me back my passport, making sure to turn to the page that showed a 2 year VISA, all the while with the same apathetic look that a dental hygienist gives to you while waiting for your credit card payment to be processed (after drilling your face for an hour with a microdrill). We took the VISA and were given a few more instructions on where to pay the fee (40 euros).

And with that, I had my VISA. And with every celebratory step I took, my legs became heavier, and my body began to shut down. The following 3 days I had a seriously bad cold/flu, as my body was liberated from all of the stresses of the last 90 days. I made it.

Literally the only welcoming sign at the Ausländerbehörde at the front of the building. Strangely feels like they are trolling you because, well, the small text should read ‘Welcome to Berlin pending your VISA application’.

EPILOGUE

As the sun began to set on my last major focus of getting the VISA, a new dawn was surely to come. There were going to be many new challenges in the year to come. I was still chasing an impossible dream with my music. Where it goes from here, there is no way to tell. But with the recent success of my music, I remain hopeful. It truly is a test of perseverance and endurance, and failure really will only be defined by if I give up or not. Otherwise it is all part of the climb. 

With the VISA finally off my shoulders, I can now truly begin with my new plans for my music. In a way, everything up until now has prepared me for this moment. I have the skills and knowledge to make music I enjoy, and also how to market it. I have a network of other music producers and potential opportunities. Yes, indeed it is a time to rejoice at the potential excitement the future may bring. But, there is something that has bothered me for a long time now. I miss my family. I miss my friends. One year cannot replace relationships fostered over a life time, and as such, finally feel ready to come home. I have never been away for such a period of time, and as such, have privately struggled with this severely over the last few months. I really cannot understate how hard it can be when you are away from home for so long. So I have an announcement.

*motions to his pet monkey playing the drums* Drum roll please.

June 15th I am coming back to Canada for one month (until July 15th). During this period I am going to be doing the grandest tour of all time, visiting as many people as possible. I will make stops in Edmonton & Calgary & up north (for my family). Most of my time will be spent in Calgary though.

I really never thought I would be in this specific point of time when I first left Canada to come here, and feel incredibly fortunate to be in the position. I still retain that I feel like this is a story being written by someone else, and am still very much intrigued to see where it ends. Trust me, I really think things are just getting started (my life’s developments have now outpaced my ability to write about them). To you the reader, thank you so much for reading. If this is the first time, feel free to read past posts that document the pretty epic journey that berlin has been so far. If you are a regular reader of my irregular blog, well, thank you <3

Thanks for reading.

Gaelan